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Friday, May 8, 2015

Family, Kids and a Failure (Tracking Challenge Days 11 & 12)

Happy Friday!!

I was at a fire last night with the girls and I was too sleepy to post my day yesterday so you get 2 diaries again.....Lucky you!!  :)

Your Food Diary For:

Thursday, May 7, 2015 

My quick add for dinner was a home made pepperoni and cheese ball that my sister in law made.  I wasn't sure how to put that in so I just guessed :)

I had so much fun getting together with my sister and sister in laws.  We sat around the fire and just had girl talk.  They had wine, but I'm kinda of a light weight, so my sister got me some Arbor Mist which is like a wine and fruit juice combo.  It was yummy!!  I wish I would have taken my phone with me so I could post some fun pictures.  I only just recently got my smart phone, so I'm not used to bringing it with me.  I was always just a flip phone girl, and I never wanted a smart phone, but now that I have one, I just love it :)


Today Dominic, our youngest moved back home for the summer.  I miss him when he's not here, but honestly, it's nice.  Just me and Greg here is nice, quiet and relaxing.  Does that sound like a bad mom??  Hmm....when my kids were little, other mom's used to say things like that, and I was appalled.  What a bad moms they are.  But now, now that it's me, I get it.  Not that I don't love my kids, but for them to move home and be here all the time again....ummm...i don't know :)  Greg and I have this nice little routine going on now.  Dominic will hardly ever be home, I'm sure, but he still is a boy and leaves a mess whatever room he is in.  It will be kinda nice to have some one to pick up after again, but I'm sure that little piece of nostalgia won't last, and I"ll be wishing he was back at school :)

Anyway, now for today's food......Oh boy..........

Your Food Diary For:

Friday, May 8, 2015 

I can't explain.  All I can say is that something came over me today.  That thing that happens when I'm doing great, getting cocky, thinking I can handle it.  That thing that starts small and ends huge.  As I look over my diary today, I notice that I messed up with breakfast.  If I would have had my protein instead of that yummy cereal and delicious creamers, maybe I would have been able to drive past McDonald's at lunch time instead of pulling in.  These past 2 weeks I have not been tempted at all with fast food.  The only thing I can think of is I didn't have a good breakfast and my blood sugar was screaming for more sugar.  I also notice that I didn't have any water today.  Diet Coke and Diet Dr. Pepper were my liquid of choice today.  Why?  I have no idea.  I don't know what goes through my mind on days like today.  I do feel that not drinking my water helped contribute to my dive bomb this entire day.  I was grocery shopping all day today.  Dominic was home and we chatted for a long time, and I put all my groceries away.  We ate our subs from Wegmans and it was then that I realized just how much damage I had done. I started putting this all in on myfitnesspal, and I couldn't believe it.  I was mindlessly eating all day.  I could just cry.  I knew what I was doing but I wasn't in control today.   All of that hard work will be ruined, I just know it.  My body gains weight just looking at food, trust me.  I have NO, I mean NO metabolism.  All of that junk will show on my scale.  I am sick.

Send me your strength to start again fresh tomorrow.....I'm going to need it.


"Success is not final, failure is not fatal:  
it is the courage to continue that counts."

~Winston Churchill

1 comment:

  1. I have had a few horrible days in a row now and I am feeling the same way you are! All I know is that if we can have more good days than bad days, we will be ok.