finding lori

My Momma.  She is our best friend.  My sis and I, and later, my daughter, did everything with her.  We were in church groups together, went shopping, out to eat, visited a few times a week.  My sis, and my brothers and I all live in a very small town, and our houses surrounded our parents house.  All our kids grew up literally running over to Amie and Poppas house for snacks, to play games with her or puzzles,  or to play in the yard where my Dad has built them a playhouse complete with electricity and a TV!   My Mom was the best grandmother to our kids.  Babysitting, hosting holidays, baking, ice-cream parties…you name it…they did it with their grandkids. We noticed changes in our Mom about 8 years ago.  She was 71. These changes became more changes and we became aware that she had a bit of dementia.  It wasn’t until my Dad went into the hospital that we realized how much it has progressed and how...

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.    I have been struggling for a while now and I feel it is time for me to come to this space, that has in the past, been a safe place for me to jot down my thoughts, my feelings, my goals and just my day to day life fun, and finally get it all out.  Even if no one reads this, It really helps to get things out...it is therapeutic for me, and I felt it's worth a try sharing my struggles so hopefully I can overcome them and finally get on with my life. I am going to separate this into three different posts so it isn't overwhelming to read.   This first post is titled, My Dad because it all began with him.   My Dad was the head of our family.  He and my Mom were together since the 9th grade.  He was kind, quiet, loving and caring, and extremally  generous, and now he is gone.  He just had his 76th birthday on September 26th, and passed away on November 27, 2019.  He passed sudden...

 Hi Friends! The crazy thing about having your own blog, is that you can be gone for while, not post for months, and it's ok, because your blog is mostly for you.  A place to come and share your thoughts, your days, your ups and down, and it's for you.  It's therapeutic.  Most of time, you don't even know if anyone is even reading it or not.  You just put it out there and there it is.  It helps you feel good! The last time I wrote, it was about my Dad passing away.  He has been gone almost one year.  My life is so different today, dealing with my Momma who has Alzheimer's,  their home, finances, even Maggie The Puggle.  All of these are little things, but they are still things that, a year ago, I didn't have in my life and now I do.  My life up until now, has been perfect in my eyes.  No real problems.  No long-lasting drama.  Just small town living, and me living my life  with rose- colored glasses on.  I h...