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My blog was started to help me come to terms with turning 50, to find myself as I become an empty nester, and to help me with my weight loss journey. (Update Here)
I am in an amazing place in my life so now follow me as I move forward with the good and the bad, my continued wieght loss journey and just my life!!


Tuesday, September 5, 2017

The Old Adage...........

Our mother is the queen of Proverbs and Adages.  We grew up hearing such sayings as, "An apple a day keeps the doctor away", "There are other fish in the sea",  "Two wrongs don't make a right", "The squeaky wheel gets the grease", "Birds of a feather, flock together".  I could go on and on.  While growing up, we hated these phrases.  We would roll our eyes, and think, "Whatever Mom!", never really taking the time to actually think about what she was trying to teach us.  Now, when I hear these phrases, I remember our Mother saying them and by gosh they are all TRUE!  How did she know?  Where the heck did she learn them?  I say these to my kids now and they look at me the same way.  There is one I still continually tell my kids and Greg........"Speed kills".   Hello???  If you are driving at 30 mph and get into a crash you are going to get injured......If you are driving fast.......Well you all know how that could end up.  Incidentally, I believe my Mom learned these from her Father :)

"You are what you eat."  This one has been hitting me in the face the past couple of years.  "You are what you eat."  I've heard it a million times, but never really heard it.  It is the truest of the trues.  I can tell you the exact kind of day I will have depending on what I eat.

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If I am eating good, and healthy, I am productive, have energy, and mentally happy.  If I over load on junk food, I am lazy, sluggish, and depressed.  Isn't my Mother the smartest person alive?

I've been hit or miss with my WW lately.  I've been making excuses to over do it on chocolate and pizza and having a fun time doing it.  Well, I haven't trained in over a week for my 5K.  I just haven't felt like doing anything, because my food has been off track so of course "all or nothing Lori" felt my whole life should be off track too.  Well, that and who wants to run when your body is full of  blahhh?!  Monday I decided that I was going to get back on track with my food, and activity.  I went to the park where I do my Couch To 5K training and took up where I had left off.  Oh my gosh did my body scream Sugar, Fat, Calories.  I tried to do the first 90 second run, and I almost got sick.  I had to stop.  I almost went home defeated, but I thought about how far I've come so I decided to just start the program over again.  I am now back on Week 1, Day 1.  All because I poisoned my body....

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I set myself back, just to have a little fun with junk food.  Was it worth it?  At the time, I thought, "what they heck,  It's only food."  I am realizing that food is NEVER only food.  It is fuel.  It is my legs running, my mind thinking clearly, and my heart beating strongly.
It is life.
It is nourishment.
It is a gift.

And I intend to start using it  more wisely :)

xoxo


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Sunday, September 3, 2017

Back To School Traditions

It's that time of year again.  Time for all the kids to go back to school!  I love this time of year.....now until Christmas is my favorite time of year.....even more so than summer I think!  In the past, this time of year brought us the tradition of school clothes shopping.  When my older 2 were young, they went to Catholic School, so the clothes shopping wasn't as fun.  Uniforms were on the list.  Blue and White everything!  When they were older, I remember them dictating which stores we needed to go to, depending on what trend they were into at the time.  Sporty, (Dicks and Champs)......Preppy, (American Eagle and Abercrombie).....Then there was the Pacsun phase with anything Billabong, Roxy and Quicksilver.   All three went through all these different phases and I loved seeing what they were into each year!   The last phase was College, and my daughter was still fun with this phase, wanting, or at least letting my buy her at least a few new items to start the school year with.  Dominic, our youngest, just started his Sr. year at Edinboro University.  He wants nothing!  No shorts, shirts, he doesn't wear socks, so socks, not even pens or pencils!  Ugh!  That's not fun for me!  I did however order him a desperately needed new pair of shoes, so I at least had a little fun doing that!  Our tradition was that you weren't allowed to wear any new back to school item until the first day of school.  Not even socks.  Last year I was out shopping around this time, as saw a little family with 3 elementary age boys.  It tugged at my heart watching them pick out shorts and t-shirts.  I went up to them and told them that I was missing buying back to school clothes now that my kids were grown and I gave them $75 to spend on their boys.  They were extremely grateful and so was I  :)

Here are my 3 babies.  2001.  The first time they were all in school at the same time.

Blayne, 13, Connor 12, and Dominic 5




Back to school also means our traditional Back To School Treats.  I started this when our oldest, Blayne started Kindergarten and I've been making them every year since, and usually only make them this time of year.   This may be my last time making them, depending on if  Dominic needs more credits next year :)  Anyway, the year Blayne started college, I made the treats for Connor and Dominic, and make another batch for Blayne and drove them to her dorm and dropped them off.  Each year I did this and last week when Dominic started classes and I again made 2 batches....one for Dominic and my nephew (they are roommates and my sister also made them her back to school cookies), and another batch for Blayne and Connor to split.  Traditions are important to me.  I think my kids look forward to different traditions throughout the year.  It's those little extra touches that they remember the most :)


Nut Mellow Goodies
Our Back to School Treat

1 pk Chocolate Chips
1 pk Butterscotch Chips
1 c Peanut Butter

Melt in a hot not boiling double boiler.

Add 1 c Spanish Peanuts
4-5 c Mini Marshmellows

Pour in a foil linned 11''x7" Pyrex dish

Refrigerate till firm


Needless to say, I was a little sad looking at all of my friends posting pictures of their kids' first day back to school, but then I realized how much I love my life now, and how lucky I am to have those memories of my kids and all the back to school pictures I've taken :)

xoxo



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Monday, August 28, 2017

Hello Strangers

Hi Friends!

I know, it's been quite a while since I've been here. There really isn't any reason why I've been MIA.  I've just been blah lately, no creative thoughts or desires pouring out, and honestly, I've been spending way to much time over at Instagram and watching IG Stories.  I've been working on it, and  think I've finally broken the habit.  It's been over a week since I've watched any stories, and I really don't miss them much.   I can post and read the posts and it doesn't take up much time, but once I get watching those stupid stories..........uggh!   Funny how something so little and dumb can capture and keep your attention so much that it is all you want to do.  How weird is wanting to know what strangers are doing and eating.  I'm sure I'm not the only one, but It's just crazy when I think about how much time is wasted watching.  Oh well, like my sister says, "it is what it is", and I hope it's over for good.  I should have much for time on my hands now :)   I've even started posting more on Facebook :)

Just a little update about what's been going on.  I am still doing Weight Watchers.  I haven't been doing terrible.  I have been more or less in a maintenance mode.  I am up and down, which has been OK for the Summer, (kinda)  but I am ready to buckle down and see some changes happen.  I had a little break down at my meeting in July and my leader reset my starting weight as of that day.  My weight was up quite a bit from last November, when I started WW.  Prior to that,  I had been following the Keto diet and had dropped 30 pounds.  Once I started eating carbs again, or should I say, totally over did it on carbs and junk,  I gained most of the weight back.  Anyway, I was up from November, so she restarted me a new booklet and now I have a new starting weight.  Mentally that helped me a lot and I am grateful!  OK.....enough weight talk :)

My life lately has been very relaxing and slow.  Summer has been wonderful here!  I only got to the beach 3 times, due to our cooler summer temps, but I will take what I can get!  Oh and guess what?     I started walking!  If you've read my posts before, you will know that I never walk.  I don't like it.  That has certainly changed.  I love it now.  I look forward to it!  I actually signed up for a 5K!!  It is October 1st.  I also decided to do the Couch to 5K program.  I am now on week 2, day 3, which is 2 minutes fast walking and 90 seconds running, for a total of 31 minutes.  I am so impressed with what my overweight, inactive body is capable of.  I struggled a bit on week 1 day 3, but since then, it's been fine.  I mean I am not all out sprinting, but its more that I have ever done.....ever! :)  I have hopes of running 1/2 of the 5K in October, and my goal is to sign up for another later and run the whole thing!  I am super proud of myself for this.  Me, "I hate walking" Lori :)

Well, I will leave you all with the promise of posting a few times a week.  If I go missing again, you'll know that I have fallen off the Instagram wagon, so send reinforcements and plan a intervention :)

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xoxo


Monday, April 24, 2017

Love Is In The Air


What a wonderful weekend!  Saturday I attended a bridal shower for the fiance of a close family friend's son.  The couple have been together for 9 years, dating all through school.  Living in a small town, everyone knows everyone, so many of my friends were there to celebrate this soon to be wedding that has been in the making a while.   The shower started at 7 pm and was held at a nearby restaurant "The Millcreek Brewing Company".  I am old school and used to showers being held at someones house, or at the most, at a rented social hall.  They are totally different now.  The Bride To Be, opened our gifts as we entered the building, which was so different, but a great way to do it.  That way, we were up close and personal with her while she opened our gift and we got to talk to her about it.  I loved it.  It didn't even back up the line coming in to much either like you think it would.  They served appetizers and it was open bar!  I am not that big of a drinker, so I opted to be the DD for my sister and I.  Here is a picture from the night.....

My sister Connie is on the right,
our friend Angie in the back.


Angie and my sister Connie have been best friend since 4th grade.  Angie's daughter is best friends with the Bride To Be, and is also getting married this summer!  So much love in the air!   It's a strange feeling when your friends children start to marry.  It doesn't seem possible that they are old enough.  Aren't they still little?  To young to marry?  I forget that life has been moving and the kids aren't kids anymore.  They are adults, planning and making their own lives.  We've taught them what love is.  Now it's their turn to share their love forever.

xoxo

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Monday, April 17, 2017

My Easter

Happy Easter Monday!

I hope everyone had a wonderful day yesterday!  I love the Easter season, because I feel the most closest to Jesus.  In church we read over and over again of the struggles He went though, and the pain Mary, His mother went through.  It just helps me to gain strength, and realize that I can get through anything as long as I rely on Him!

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Yes, two posts in a row.  I am hoping I can substitute some of my bad habits for posting more on my blog.  Sometimes I have too much time on my hands and I tend to eat more, and just veg in front of the TV.  It is helpful when I share, no matter what it is, because I either feel stronger getting it out there, or just happier because I am actually doing something constructive.  Either way, it's good!

Yesterday began with a beautiful morning sitting outside on The Sanctuary.  (My name for my porch)  I know I've posted pictures of it before, but I can not find the post.  Anyway, when I get it all ready for Summer, I will post some pictures.....It's still in Winter mode right now :)


Greg and I sat out there all morning into the afternoon, relaxing and playing with our pups, Ava and Laker.  I went to Easter Mass last night so I didn't have to get up and out this morning :)   It was beautiful out today!  75 degrees and sunny for the most part, with a nice breeze!  I'll take it for early April in NW Pennsylvania! 

I still do Easter Baskets for the kids.  I can't stop :)  My middle, Connor lives out of town and wasn't able to come home, so I didn't make one up for him, (he will get his goodies in the mail)  but I made one up for Blayne and Dominic and for Blayne's boyfriend and her 2 pups!  You're never to old for an Easter Basket :) 



We went over to my Sister's house around 3:00 for dinner.  It was a wonderful dinner as she is the most perfect hostess.  Her home is so warm and welcoming and she is a wonderful cook so the food is always delish!  Here I am with my sister Connie and our mother, Judy :) 



Here I am 
with my daughter Blayne :) 


Afterwards, the kids took all their goodies and headed to their own homes.  Greg and I were left with the dogs who were beat, after a day of playing with their City Cousins and eating goodies :) 





It is still different when holidays come.  We were so used to being in kid mode for so many years.  Egg hunts, buying prizes, finding that perfect hiding spot for the baskets....hectic but fun and so nice!  Our holidays now are so laid back and calm.  So nice! :) 

I ate what chocolate I wanted last night and sent the remainder to work this morning with Greg to set out in the break room.  Today begins my refresh and re-commitment so I needed it out of the house :)

I hope you all had a wonderful Easter and were able to spend time with family and or friends.  I hope you have no regrets in the Easter Basket area.  Remember.............

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xoxo




Saturday, April 15, 2017

Hello "M"



It's been over a month since my last post.  There is a perfectly good reason and hopefully some of you can relate so I don't sound like a complete lunatic.

SPOILER ALLERT.......Any of you men out there, this is totally going to be a woman's topic filled with woman-type words and just woman-type feelings. You are forewarned 😊

Menopause has struck my house.  Fist of all, don't you hate that word?  Couldn't they have come up with a super cute word for what we woman have to go through?  I'm sure a man made that one up!  Let's just call it "M".  Ok, so it's been a year since my "P", so I am pretty sure that I am in "M".  Up until now, it's been smooth sailing.  A few hot flashes here and there, but I am kind of  a sweaty person to begin with so I am used to dealing with that.  Very little mood swings, very little anything.   I thought wow!  What's all the hype about?  Oh how could I have been so wrong!  It began about 3 weeks ago with the overwhelming feeling of "prickliness" as my sister and I call it.  That feeling when everyone and everything is irritating you,  everything you do is not good enough for you, everything you think is all jumbled in your brain at once.  You just feel prickly.  I don't know about you all, but when I am feeling "off", I always think I need chocolate....well and other junk food too.  But it's real medicine isn't it???  So the more prickly I feel, the more I've been self medicating with junk food.   Enter self pity, self loathing, self everything else.  It's been a vicious cycle.  My life is totally out of control, and you all know how much I hate that!   My body is so out of wack because of my hormones, combined with me not eating right that I've been crying at anything and everything one minute and the next I want to actually stab someone with a knife 😇  I have never experienced this before.  I dealt with postpartum depressing a bit, but this seems to be lasting longer and it is just taking everything out of me emotionally and physically....I am tired all the time, which could be the junk food too, now that I think about it. The good news is, I can tell it's getting better.  I can see the light at the end.  I consider myself very lucky, because I know this will end for me.  Many people suffer from depression and they never see the end in sight.  The struggle is constant.  They are very strong people.

My remedy?  I promised myself that I would get my life back in order after Easter.  Beginning Monday I am hitting the gym and going back to my Ab Class.  I have been really slacking in that area too. "I just don't feel like I am good enough to be there.  Everyone else is thinner, and more fit that I am, I can't do anything they are all doing."  That was my mind set for the past 3 weeks, so I just gave into the negativity  and gave up.   Monday I will push myself to be there.  I will push myself to think positive.  I will try and not give up!  Also beginning Monday, I  am getting my eating back on track.  I have been going up and down on the scale and that needs to end.  No more self medicating with Country Fair stops for Hostess products and Mallo Cups.  No more waiting for Greg to go to sleep so I can raid the Easter Candy that I bought way to early.  The insanity has to stop!   I want my emotions back!  I want my control back!  I want my life back!

I'll keep you posted 😉

xoxo

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Monday, March 6, 2017

Just Begin

Happy Monday!

I wanted to share my goals for March................



The first one is going to be tough!   The second is a WW thing.  Every day you stay within 3 points of your total WW points you receive a blue dot on your calendar on the WW App.  I am shooting for 26 for the month!  The last, well, 7 pounds should be doable if I am getting 26 blue dots :)  I will keep you updated on my progress :) 

My weigh in on Friday went really well.  I was down 3 pounds!  I am on a 2 week losing streak right now and pushing to keep it going!  Wish me luck!

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Last week I was going through some of my old posts.  I kept going further and further back, just skimming them. It was fun to re-live things that I've done, but then  I started feeling a little depressed, and disheartened.  I've been struggling with my weight for almost 30 years now, so it shouldn't come as a surprise that I am still working on it.  Still working!  But seeing it in print really hit me how much time and energy I put into this one area of my life with very little change.  Goals, weigh ins, shoulds, shouldn'ts, promises, successes, failures..... Sigh!  It really was exhausting to read.  The next day at out work, I talked it over with my sister.  It was then that I realized that there has been changes. Here and there, I've made changes.  This is a journey.  Changes come little by little.  Small changes that you don't even realize are happening.

~I Am More Educated About My Food~

I have learned about portion sizes, sugar content, saturated fats.....I could go on and on!

~I Truly Like  Myself So Much More~

I like what I see in the mirror.  I many not be the size I want to be yet, but I am loving the body I have right now.  It is working for me.  Pushing me.  Not letting me give up.  I like it!

~I Am More Confident~

Being on any journey is a boost for your self-esteem.  It is empowering to be working towards something, feeling success and learning to deal with failures.

~My Weight Is At An All Time Low~

Well, not really ALL TIME, but it is the lowest it's been since before I became pregnant with my first baby,  who will be 30 this year!

These are all changes that I have made.  If I hadn't began this journey, who know what kind of person I'd be right now.  Unhealthy, lazy, depressed........  Instead, I am working towards something, and along the way I am making myself a better person, physically, emotionally, and mentally.  

Anyone who is on a journey of any kind, is already succeeding, just starting it.  It is always good to be searching.  To learn new things, or ways to do something.  To change your attitude, your thought process.  To remove negative people or things from your life, and to find positive and add it back in.  There are so many wonderful things that happen on any journey.  You grow, you evolve, you learn.  All you have to do is take the first step and just begin.

xoxo


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