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My blog was started to help me come to terms with turning 50, to find myself as I become an empty nester, and to help me with my weight loss journey. (Update Here)
I am in an amazing place in my life so now follow me as I move forward with the good and the bad, my continued wieght loss journey and just my life!!


Monday, April 24, 2017

Love Is In The Air


What a wonderful weekend!  Saturday I attended a bridal shower for the fiance of a close family friend's son.  The couple have been together for 9 years, dating all through school.  Living in a small town, everyone knows everyone, so many of my friends were there to celebrate this soon to be wedding that has been in the making a while.   The shower started at 7 pm and was held at a nearby restaurant "The Millcreek Brewing Company".  I am old school and used to showers being held at someones house, or at the most, at a rented social hall.  They are totally different now.  The Bride To Be, opened our gifts as we entered the building, which was so different, but a great way to do it.  That way, we were up close and personal with her while she opened our gift and we got to talk to her about it.  I loved it.  It didn't even back up the line coming in to much either like you think it would.  They served appetizers and it was open bar!  I am not that big of a drinker, so I opted to be the DD for my sister and I.  Here is a picture from the night.....

My sister Connie is on the right,
our friend Angie in the back.


Angie and my sister Connie have been best friend since 4th grade.  Angie's daughter is best friends with the Bride To Be, and is also getting married this summer!  So much love in the air!   It's a strange feeling when your friends children start to marry.  It doesn't seem possible that they are old enough.  Aren't they still little?  To young to marry?  I forget that life has been moving and the kids aren't kids anymore.  They are adults, planning and making their own lives.  We've taught them what love is.  Now it's their turn to share their love forever.

xoxo

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Monday, April 17, 2017

My Easter

Happy Easter Monday!

I hope everyone had a wonderful day yesterday!  I love the Easter season, because I feel the most closest to Jesus.  In church we read over and over again of the struggles He went though, and the pain Mary, His mother went through.  It just helps me to gain strength, and realize that I can get through anything as long as I rely on Him!

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Yes, two posts in a row.  I am hoping I can substitute some of my bad habits for posting more on my blog.  Sometimes I have too much time on my hands and I tend to eat more, and just veg in front of the TV.  It is helpful when I share, no matter what it is, because I either feel stronger getting it out there, or just happier because I am actually doing something constructive.  Either way, it's good!

Yesterday began with a beautiful morning sitting outside on The Sanctuary.  (My name for my porch)  I know I've posted pictures of it before, but I can not find the post.  Anyway, when I get it all ready for Summer, I will post some pictures.....It's still in Winter mode right now :)


Greg and I sat out there all morning into the afternoon, relaxing and playing with our pups, Ava and Laker.  I went to Easter Mass last night so I didn't have to get up and out this morning :)   It was beautiful out today!  75 degrees and sunny for the most part, with a nice breeze!  I'll take it for early April in NW Pennsylvania! 

I still do Easter Baskets for the kids.  I can't stop :)  My middle, Connor lives out of town and wasn't able to come home, so I didn't make one up for him, (he will get his goodies in the mail)  but I made one up for Blayne and Dominic and for Blayne's boyfriend and her 2 pups!  You're never to old for an Easter Basket :) 



We went over to my Sister's house around 3:00 for dinner.  It was a wonderful dinner as she is the most perfect hostess.  Her home is so warm and welcoming and she is a wonderful cook so the food is always delish!  Here I am with my sister Connie and our mother, Judy :) 



Here I am 
with my daughter Blayne :) 


Afterwards, the kids took all their goodies and headed to their own homes.  Greg and I were left with the dogs who were beat, after a day of playing with their City Cousins and eating goodies :) 





It is still different when holidays come.  We were so used to being in kid mode for so many years.  Egg hunts, buying prizes, finding that perfect hiding spot for the baskets....hectic but fun and so nice!  Our holidays now are so laid back and calm.  So nice! :) 

I ate what chocolate I wanted last night and sent the remainder to work this morning with Greg to set out in the break room.  Today begins my refresh and re-commitment so I needed it out of the house :)

I hope you all had a wonderful Easter and were able to spend time with family and or friends.  I hope you have no regrets in the Easter Basket area.  Remember.............

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xoxo




Saturday, April 15, 2017

Hello "M"



It's been over a month since my last post.  There is a perfectly good reason and hopefully some of you can relate so I don't sound like a complete lunatic.

SPOILER ALLERT.......Any of you men out there, this is totally going to be a woman's topic filled with woman-type words and just woman-type feelings. You are forewarned 😊

Menopause has struck my house.  Fist of all, don't you hate that word?  Couldn't they have come up with a super cute word for what we woman have to go through?  I'm sure a man made that one up!  Let's just call it "M".  Ok, so it's been a year since my "P", so I am pretty sure that I am in "M".  Up until now, it's been smooth sailing.  A few hot flashes here and there, but I am kind of  a sweaty person to begin with so I am used to dealing with that.  Very little mood swings, very little anything.   I thought wow!  What's all the hype about?  Oh how could I have been so wrong!  It began about 3 weeks ago with the overwhelming feeling of "prickliness" as my sister and I call it.  That feeling when everyone and everything is irritating you,  everything you do is not good enough for you, everything you think is all jumbled in your brain at once.  You just feel prickly.  I don't know about you all, but when I am feeling "off", I always think I need chocolate....well and other junk food too.  But it's real medicine isn't it???  So the more prickly I feel, the more I've been self medicating with junk food.   Enter self pity, self loathing, self everything else.  It's been a vicious cycle.  My life is totally out of control, and you all know how much I hate that!   My body is so out of wack because of my hormones, combined with me not eating right that I've been crying at anything and everything one minute and the next I want to actually stab someone with a knife 😇  I have never experienced this before.  I dealt with postpartum depressing a bit, but this seems to be lasting longer and it is just taking everything out of me emotionally and physically....I am tired all the time, which could be the junk food too, now that I think about it. The good news is, I can tell it's getting better.  I can see the light at the end.  I consider myself very lucky, because I know this will end for me.  Many people suffer from depression and they never see the end in sight.  The struggle is constant.  They are very strong people.

My remedy?  I promised myself that I would get my life back in order after Easter.  Beginning Monday I am hitting the gym and going back to my Ab Class.  I have been really slacking in that area too. "I just don't feel like I am good enough to be there.  Everyone else is thinner, and more fit that I am, I can't do anything they are all doing."  That was my mind set for the past 3 weeks, so I just gave into the negativity  and gave up.   Monday I will push myself to be there.  I will push myself to think positive.  I will try and not give up!  Also beginning Monday, I  am getting my eating back on track.  I have been going up and down on the scale and that needs to end.  No more self medicating with Country Fair stops for Hostess products and Mallo Cups.  No more waiting for Greg to go to sleep so I can raid the Easter Candy that I bought way to early.  The insanity has to stop!   I want my emotions back!  I want my control back!  I want my life back!

I'll keep you posted 😉

xoxo

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Monday, March 6, 2017

Just Begin

Happy Monday!

I wanted to share my goals for March................



The first one is going to be tough!   The second is a WW thing.  Every day you stay within 3 points of your total WW points you receive a blue dot on your calendar on the WW App.  I am shooting for 26 for the month!  The last, well, 7 pounds should be doable if I am getting 26 blue dots :)  I will keep you updated on my progress :) 

My weigh in on Friday went really well.  I was down 3 pounds!  I am on a 2 week losing streak right now and pushing to keep it going!  Wish me luck!

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Last week I was going through some of my old posts.  I kept going further and further back, just skimming them. It was fun to re-live things that I've done, but then  I started feeling a little depressed, and disheartened.  I've been struggling with my weight for almost 30 years now, so it shouldn't come as a surprise that I am still working on it.  Still working!  But seeing it in print really hit me how much time and energy I put into this one area of my life with very little change.  Goals, weigh ins, shoulds, shouldn'ts, promises, successes, failures..... Sigh!  It really was exhausting to read.  The next day at out work, I talked it over with my sister.  It was then that I realized that there has been changes. Here and there, I've made changes.  This is a journey.  Changes come little by little.  Small changes that you don't even realize are happening.

~I Am More Educated About My Food~

I have learned about portion sizes, sugar content, saturated fats.....I could go on and on!

~I Truly Like  Myself So Much More~

I like what I see in the mirror.  I many not be the size I want to be yet, but I am loving the body I have right now.  It is working for me.  Pushing me.  Not letting me give up.  I like it!

~I Am More Confident~

Being on any journey is a boost for your self-esteem.  It is empowering to be working towards something, feeling success and learning to deal with failures.

~My Weight Is At An All Time Low~

Well, not really ALL TIME, but it is the lowest it's been since before I became pregnant with my first baby,  who will be 30 this year!

These are all changes that I have made.  If I hadn't began this journey, who know what kind of person I'd be right now.  Unhealthy, lazy, depressed........  Instead, I am working towards something, and along the way I am making myself a better person, physically, emotionally, and mentally.  

Anyone who is on a journey of any kind, is already succeeding, just starting it.  It is always good to be searching.  To learn new things, or ways to do something.  To change your attitude, your thought process.  To remove negative people or things from your life, and to find positive and add it back in.  There are so many wonderful things that happen on any journey.  You grow, you evolve, you learn.  All you have to do is take the first step and just begin.

xoxo


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Thursday, March 2, 2017

Quick Check In

What a crazy week!  Our internet has been down, including our phone and TV!  Not totally down, but on and off, in and out.  We got it all fixed up last night, the poor cable boy was here from 4ish to 8 working on our problem.  He ended up laying new cable and setting up a new system inside and out!  Hopefully we wont have anymore problems any time soon! :)

I just wanted to check in really quick on my goals and my weigh in from last Friday.

My goals for last week, were to stay within my WW points, and lose 1 pound.  Well, I am super proud to say that I did both!  I stayed strong, even over the weekend, and I weighed in last Friday and lost 4.4 pounds!  That just goes to show you 2 things.  If you track your food and don't go over, it works.  And 2, I am stronger than I think :)



I think really concentrating on why I wanted to succeed in my goals really helped me this week.  If you put a mental why to what you are doing, it makes you push that much harder.

Short and sweet tonight, because I have another weigh in tomorrow and I need to get things organized on here since I've been MIA for awhile.

Have a wonderful night!

xoxo


Monday, February 20, 2017

Goals and Friendship

My friend Pam and I have so much history.  We met when I was still in high school, through our husbands, who were our boyfriends at the time.  She and I were inseparable for so long.  Then life got in the way, and so on and so forth, time flew by and miles separated us.  Throughout the years I have thought about her and missed her and what we had.   A few months ago, we reconnected, and it feels like a part of me is restored.  We picked up without skipping a beat.  That is true friendship.  We are still separated by miles, but it never fails that she emails me at the moment I need her.  Here is a recent quote she sent me, which is right on track with what I have been doing.........

"The more reasons you have for achieving your goal, 
the more determined you will become."
-- Brian Tracy

It goes on to say.............

We set a goal for ourselves and we are filled with determination -- this will be done!
 
Then the alarm goes off in the morning and we think -- it can wait. I can start tomorrow. I don’t really have to do it today. It’s not that important. And on and on.
 
Research shows that writing down your goals will make you more likely to achieve them. That we know.
 
But what if in addition to writing down the goal you also wrote down the reasons the goal is important for you? What if you captured on paper that energy and determination you have when you first set the goal?
 
Then when the alarm goes off in the morning, or when the task you need to do to accomplish your goal is in front of you and you feel tempted to put it off, you can look at your list of reasons, or motivations and remember why it’s important to you.

I personally think this is a wonderful idea!  Not only set a goal, but note why you want to succeed in the goal.  What is the reason?  Goals are so important to me right now.  Even if I fail and do not hit my goals for the week, at least mentally I am thinking of them, making an attempt to change, and trying.  Even this is enough to feel some sort of success.  

With that said, here are my goals for the week......



I want to stay within my points because this will help me feel better, help me feel more in control and help me on the scale.  I need to lose 1 pound to turn this month around.  I have consistently been eating poorly and it is really showing on the scale.  Like I said before, I am tired of it and it needs to change.  I tried hard this past week, but I've been sick and all I want is comfort food and chocolate.  That is totally an excuse, but I tend to do that.  Anyway, these are my goals for this week.  The weekend was super!  I stayed within my points on Saturday and Sunday, and I went to the gym today and have been on track all day, so at least I am starting out in a good place :)  

So, that is all I have.  Thank you for putting up with all of my downer posts lately.  I am trying to turn this around.  I know it's depressing to continually ready GAINS on my posts, but it is what it is and I am determined to turn this around. It's just taking me a little longer than I thought :) 

Thank you Pam, for motivating me, for making me think, and for being back in my life!  I value your advice and truly value our friendship!

xoxo


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Monday, February 13, 2017

Valentines Fun and A New Day

Happy Valentines Day Eve!

This weekend I made a fun new cookie for my family.  My sister found this recipe in her Better Homes and Gardens magazine and we thought they looked so cute and fun to make.

Here is the recipe for Chocolate Cherry Dips

Ingredients

1/2 of an 8-ounce package cream cheese, softened
1/2 cup powdered sugar
1/2 cup finely chopped, drained maraschino cherries
1/4 teaspoon almond extract
60 vanilla wafers
12 ounces chocolate-flavor candy coating, coarsely chopped


Directions

For filling, in a medium mixing bowl beat cream cheese and powdered sugar with an electric mixer on medium speed until smooth. Stir in cherries and almond extract. Spread filling on bottoms of half of the vanilla wafers. Top with the remaining wafers, bottom sides down. Cover and chill about 30 minutes or until filling is firm.

In a medium saucepan cook and stir chocolate candy coating and the 2 teaspoons shortening over low heat until melted and smooth. Remove from heat. Using a fork, dip each sandwich cookie in melted chocolate coating, turning to coat completely and letting excess coating drip back into pan. Place dipped cookies on a sheet of waxed paper. Sprinkle with jimmies. Let stand about 30 minutes or until chocolate coating is set.


The filling......



Before dipping.......



All dipped and sprinkled!



I thought they turned out so cute and they were so fun to make.  I didn't like they way to cookie got a little bit soft, and I probably would add cherry flavoring to the filling, because the Marciano Cherries weren't very strong.  Other than that I liked them :)

Tomorrow is not only Valentines Day, but also my hubby's birthday!  We decided to celebrate early to beat the crowds.  Saturday we went to the Casino to spend a little money :)  We don't go much, neither of us like to waste the money, but once in a while it's fun to sit and play!

We ate upstairs at the Casio, and this was our view....


This is the Race Track.  It is so sad in the winter when there are not races going on.  We went to the races twice last year, and plan to go more this year.  It is so much fun!

We had a great meal and didn't spend too much gambling :)  We didn't win, but had so much fun playing Jacks Are Better :)

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Last Friday was my weigh in.  I've been struggling and haven't been doing very well, and gained 4 lbs.  So there it is.  I am always honest here, no matter how embarrassing.  It allows me to see it for what it is and then enables me to refocus honestly.  I almost didn't go to my meeting.  I knew I was up, I didn't want to see it in print, in my booklet, but I decided to bite the bullet and go.  I am glad that I went.  I never regret weighing in when I have gained.  It is a starting point for me, and I need that.  I am not dwelling on it.  I know what needs to be done.  I know what I am not supposed to eat. Today is a new day.....Day One....I need about 3 good days to get myself back in the mind set that I need to be in.  Send me your positive vibes.  Three days is nothing!  I can do it! :)  

xoxo