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My blog was started to help me come to terms with turning 50, to find myself as I become an empty nester, and to help me with my weight loss journey. (Update Here)
I am in an amazing place in my life so now follow me as I move forward with the good and the bad, my continued wieght loss journey and just my life!!


Monday, April 24, 2017

Love Is In The Air


What a wonderful weekend!  Saturday I attended a bridal shower for the fiance of a close family friend's son.  The couple have been together for 9 years, dating all through school.  Living in a small town, everyone knows everyone, so many of my friends were there to celebrate this soon to be wedding that has been in the making a while.   The shower started at 7 pm and was held at a nearby restaurant "The Millcreek Brewing Company".  I am old school and used to showers being held at someones house, or at the most, at a rented social hall.  They are totally different now.  The Bride To Be, opened our gifts as we entered the building, which was so different, but a great way to do it.  That way, we were up close and personal with her while she opened our gift and we got to talk to her about it.  I loved it.  It didn't even back up the line coming in to much either like you think it would.  They served appetizers and it was open bar!  I am not that big of a drinker, so I opted to be the DD for my sister and I.  Here is a picture from the night.....

My sister Connie is on the right,
our friend Angie in the back.


Angie and my sister Connie have been best friend since 4th grade.  Angie's daughter is best friends with the Bride To Be, and is also getting married this summer!  So much love in the air!   It's a strange feeling when your friends children start to marry.  It doesn't seem possible that they are old enough.  Aren't they still little?  To young to marry?  I forget that life has been moving and the kids aren't kids anymore.  They are adults, planning and making their own lives.  We've taught them what love is.  Now it's their turn to share their love forever.

xoxo

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Monday, April 17, 2017

My Easter

Happy Easter Monday!

I hope everyone had a wonderful day yesterday!  I love the Easter season, because I feel the most closest to Jesus.  In church we read over and over again of the struggles He went though, and the pain Mary, His mother went through.  It just helps me to gain strength, and realize that I can get through anything as long as I rely on Him!

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Yes, two posts in a row.  I am hoping I can substitute some of my bad habits for posting more on my blog.  Sometimes I have too much time on my hands and I tend to eat more, and just veg in front of the TV.  It is helpful when I share, no matter what it is, because I either feel stronger getting it out there, or just happier because I am actually doing something constructive.  Either way, it's good!

Yesterday began with a beautiful morning sitting outside on The Sanctuary.  (My name for my porch)  I know I've posted pictures of it before, but I can not find the post.  Anyway, when I get it all ready for Summer, I will post some pictures.....It's still in Winter mode right now :)


Greg and I sat out there all morning into the afternoon, relaxing and playing with our pups, Ava and Laker.  I went to Easter Mass last night so I didn't have to get up and out this morning :)   It was beautiful out today!  75 degrees and sunny for the most part, with a nice breeze!  I'll take it for early April in NW Pennsylvania! 

I still do Easter Baskets for the kids.  I can't stop :)  My middle, Connor lives out of town and wasn't able to come home, so I didn't make one up for him, (he will get his goodies in the mail)  but I made one up for Blayne and Dominic and for Blayne's boyfriend and her 2 pups!  You're never to old for an Easter Basket :) 



We went over to my Sister's house around 3:00 for dinner.  It was a wonderful dinner as she is the most perfect hostess.  Her home is so warm and welcoming and she is a wonderful cook so the food is always delish!  Here I am with my sister Connie and our mother, Judy :) 



Here I am 
with my daughter Blayne :) 


Afterwards, the kids took all their goodies and headed to their own homes.  Greg and I were left with the dogs who were beat, after a day of playing with their City Cousins and eating goodies :) 





It is still different when holidays come.  We were so used to being in kid mode for so many years.  Egg hunts, buying prizes, finding that perfect hiding spot for the baskets....hectic but fun and so nice!  Our holidays now are so laid back and calm.  So nice! :) 

I ate what chocolate I wanted last night and sent the remainder to work this morning with Greg to set out in the break room.  Today begins my refresh and re-commitment so I needed it out of the house :)

I hope you all had a wonderful Easter and were able to spend time with family and or friends.  I hope you have no regrets in the Easter Basket area.  Remember.............

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xoxo




Saturday, April 15, 2017

Hello "M"



It's been over a month since my last post.  There is a perfectly good reason and hopefully some of you can relate so I don't sound like a complete lunatic.

SPOILER ALLERT.......Any of you men out there, this is totally going to be a woman's topic filled with woman-type words and just woman-type feelings. You are forewarned 😊

Menopause has struck my house.  Fist of all, don't you hate that word?  Couldn't they have come up with a super cute word for what we woman have to go through?  I'm sure a man made that one up!  Let's just call it "M".  Ok, so it's been a year since my "P", so I am pretty sure that I am in "M".  Up until now, it's been smooth sailing.  A few hot flashes here and there, but I am kind of  a sweaty person to begin with so I am used to dealing with that.  Very little mood swings, very little anything.   I thought wow!  What's all the hype about?  Oh how could I have been so wrong!  It began about 3 weeks ago with the overwhelming feeling of "prickliness" as my sister and I call it.  That feeling when everyone and everything is irritating you,  everything you do is not good enough for you, everything you think is all jumbled in your brain at once.  You just feel prickly.  I don't know about you all, but when I am feeling "off", I always think I need chocolate....well and other junk food too.  But it's real medicine isn't it???  So the more prickly I feel, the more I've been self medicating with junk food.   Enter self pity, self loathing, self everything else.  It's been a vicious cycle.  My life is totally out of control, and you all know how much I hate that!   My body is so out of wack because of my hormones, combined with me not eating right that I've been crying at anything and everything one minute and the next I want to actually stab someone with a knife 😇  I have never experienced this before.  I dealt with postpartum depressing a bit, but this seems to be lasting longer and it is just taking everything out of me emotionally and physically....I am tired all the time, which could be the junk food too, now that I think about it. The good news is, I can tell it's getting better.  I can see the light at the end.  I consider myself very lucky, because I know this will end for me.  Many people suffer from depression and they never see the end in sight.  The struggle is constant.  They are very strong people.

My remedy?  I promised myself that I would get my life back in order after Easter.  Beginning Monday I am hitting the gym and going back to my Ab Class.  I have been really slacking in that area too. "I just don't feel like I am good enough to be there.  Everyone else is thinner, and more fit that I am, I can't do anything they are all doing."  That was my mind set for the past 3 weeks, so I just gave into the negativity  and gave up.   Monday I will push myself to be there.  I will push myself to think positive.  I will try and not give up!  Also beginning Monday, I  am getting my eating back on track.  I have been going up and down on the scale and that needs to end.  No more self medicating with Country Fair stops for Hostess products and Mallo Cups.  No more waiting for Greg to go to sleep so I can raid the Easter Candy that I bought way to early.  The insanity has to stop!   I want my emotions back!  I want my control back!  I want my life back!

I'll keep you posted 😉

xoxo

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