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My blog was started to help me come to terms with turning 50, to find myself as I become an empty nester, and to help me with my weight loss journey. (Update Here)
I am in an amazing place in my life so now follow me as I move forward with the good and the bad, my continued wieght loss journey and just my life!!

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Thank You!

Just a quick post to say "Thank You" to everyone who reached out to me via comments and or email, after my last post.  If you are a long time dieter, you know how it is when you are doing so well, and then you fall off the wagon.  Some times, when you are in that "I am so weak" frame of mind, it just feels like the biggest thing in the world.  Talking about it helps me realize it really isn't that big.  It actually really isn't much at all.  I went back a few days later and re read my post and was like, Ok...So?   In the heat of the moment, It was a fail, it was huge, and I felt horrible.  This is why I blog.  So I can remember how I felt and how it really doesn't matter in the scheme of things.  I also love that I can put it out there and I get so much support, and advice back.   You all help me more than you know.  Thank you for being a part of my journey! 

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Monday, October 24, 2016

Today Is My Day!!

Hello Monday!  I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

I had a cheat weekend.  I haven't felt this lost in months.  Although I don't regret my weekend, I still feel like I've failed......

This is how my weekend went down.

Every year, my daughter Blayne and I go on a little road trip sometime in the fall.  We call it our Fall Fun Day.  Usually we go a sweet little Amish town in Ohio, a little over an hour away, and visit a little Amish store.  We do a little shopping and then sit in the town square in the gazebo and eat our treats and just enjoy the scenery.  This year we decided to do something different, and took the back way to to Hermitage, a town about an hour away, to do some craft shopping and lunch.  As per our Fall Fun Day Rules, we stopped at the usual store to fuel up on drinks, then we were off on our road trip.  I had already planned on making this a cheat day because, well, because I wanted to.  I wanted the Pumpkin Spice Caramel Corn, the Candy Corn Autumn Mix, and the Pumpkin Spice Yogurt Covered Pretzels, not to mention the chocolate that usually rides along with us on any road trip.  I wanted to go out to lunch and order what I really wanted.  It's tradition you know :) 

This is on our way to Hermitage.  It started out a little rainy, but it didn't last and it was still beautiful.

This is a cute little house that is at the end of a square in Ohio, that I've always loved.

This is the craft store we traveled to go to.  We do not that these near us.  We have a Hobby Lobby, and a Michaels.  They are similar to this Pat Catan's.

Part of their sticker, washi tape isle.....Sigh :)

Hermitage also has a TJ Maxx, so of course we had to go there :)   Blayne found these little Christmas figures.  We kind of were afraid of their faces.............

Just some fun pictures of our drive home....

Sometime, I want to go traveling just to find old run down barns to photograph. I just love them!!   I need a descent camera first.  These are with my phone :)

When I got home from our road trip.  Greg  decided that he wanted Chinese for dinner.  Of course, I couldn't turn that down could I?  I mean, I already ate badly and I really did want Chinese.

Sunday I woke up with thoughts of starting over.  One day couldn't have hurt to bad.  I stepped on the scale.......Big mistake I know.  I was up 5 pounds.  I know it was water weight blah blah blah, but it still hurt.  My mind started to do some bad talking.   After church, my sister and I took our 4 great nephews and our youngest niece and nephew on a picnic, nature hike/scavenger hunt.  We had a blast with them.

Aren't they all just super cute??  Anyway, the picnic food, and snacks were just too good for me to pass by.  My old mind tricks started up again.  "Oh you blew it yesterday, so why don't you just START MONDAY".   That dreaded Start Monday, we all know and love.  I caved.  I am so ashamed.  I could be on day two of being on plan, but instead, I am starting over after a 2 day crash.  UGG!  Why does it matter so much?  It shouldn't.  Isn't enough that I've been doing great since the end of June?  Will it ever be enough?  I am beginning to wonder.  I don't want to be so consumed with my weight loss that I am upset about cheating a few days.  I think it's still new.  I am still so close to my old thoughts and my old ways, that I am scared of falling back into that some old routine of sliding for days eating anything and everything.  I have been so good and have been able to get right back on track after going off for a day.  This is 2 days, and I think that's why I am in a panic.

Today is my day.  Today I get back on plan.  Today I turn it around.  Today I will not be with same old Lori that I used to be.  I am determined to put her to rest once and for all.  If I can survive today, and stay on plan, then I will be stronger than I ever have been.  Today is my day!


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Monday, October 17, 2016

Shopping With A Best Friend

Today was beautiful!  75 degrees and sunny.  A perfect day to do a little shopping!

Ava begged me to take her with me :)

Here is our day in pictures..............

Our 30 minute ride into the big city :)

First stop....Starbucks of course :)
Sorry for the windshield!
So many tiny bugs this time of year!

Next to Pet Smart 
for some new accessories! 

New pretty collar! 

Next stop Michaels.
Ava is so excited!! 

In her bag,
shopping for stickers and fun stuff!

Jimmy Johns for lunch!!

Checking out the Unwich

Giving the OK on the bacon.

Stopped at Wegmans
 for a few groceries

Trying not to fall asleep
on the way home......

That was our day!  Hope you all had as much fun today as we did :)


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Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Find Your Xanadu

As you may know, I have been struggling with losing weight for sometime now.  Watching the scale go up and down.  Feeling on top of the world when I lose, then disappointed when I gain it back the next week.  I struggle with overeating, and binging,  I could never get a grasp on falling off and getting right back on track.  Once I was off....I was off a good couple days, or even a week.  Now, what I am realizing is, that the ability to regain control quicker, and lose weight is so much easier when your head is in the game.  We all know this I know, but it has really been hitting home lately, now that I am losing. I find that the more weight I lose, the better I feel about myself, and the better I want to do.  I am at a weight right now, that I haven't been at since before I became pregnant with my oldest, who just turned 29.  It's like I have ventured into a magical, beautiful place, where I haven't been before.....my Xanadu, and it is given me the strength I need to regain control, to not overeat, to keep going.   My mind is finally not playing games with me.  After a "Treat Day", I jump right back on track the next day....this has never happened before so this is huge for me!  I think it is because I have gotten past a point in my weight loss that I have never been to and it has helped me feel powerful, in control and extremely motivated.  I am mentally evolving as my body changes.  I keep thinking about how I don't want to start all over again.  I don't want to go through the pain of gaining the weight back and giving up all I have gained with my weight loss so far...the way I feel, the way I carry myself and yes, the new clothes I am acquiring :)  The more positive you are and the more you love yourself, the more you want to continue to make changes.

Whatever your journey is, just keep pushing.  Keep working at it.  Don't give up to quickly.  Get past that point where you haven't been in awhile, if ever, and you will feel empowered and motivated to keep going.  Find your Xanadu :)


[zan-uh-doo, -dyoo] 
1. a place of great beauty, 
luxury, and contentment.