finding lori

My Momma.  She is our best friend.  My sis and I, and later, my daughter, did everything with her.  We were in church groups together, went shopping, out to eat, visited a few times a week.  My sis, and my brothers and I all live in a very small town, and our houses surrounded our parents house.  All our kids grew up literally running over to Amie and Poppas house for snacks, to play games with her or puzzles,  or to play in the yard where my Dad has built them a playhouse complete with electricity and a TV!   My Mom was the best grandmother to our kids.  Babysitting, hosting holidays, baking, ice-cream parties…you name it…they did it with their grandkids. We noticed changes in our Mom about 8 years ago.  She was 71. These changes became more changes and we became aware that she had a bit of dementia.  It wasn’t until my Dad went into the hospital that we realized how much it has progressed and how much my Dad was covering for her.   When Dad was in the hospital, we made sure she had 3

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.    I have been struggling for a while now and I feel it is time for me to come to this space, that has in the past, been a safe place for me to jot down my thoughts, my feelings, my goals and just my day to day life fun, and finally get it all out.  Even if no one reads this, It really helps to get things out...it is therapeutic for me, and I felt it's worth a try sharing my struggles so hopefully I can overcome them and finally get on with my life. I am going to separate this into three different posts so it isn't overwhelming to read.   This first post is titled, My Dad because it all began with him.   My Dad was the head of our family.  He and my Mom were together since the 9th grade.  He was kind, quiet, loving and caring, and extremally  generous, and now he is gone.  He just had his 76th birthday on September 26th, and passed away on November 27, 2019.  He passed suddenly, and left us all alone wondering why.  He had been si