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My blog was started to help me come to terms with turning 50, to find myself as I become an empty nester, and to help me with my weight loss journey. (Update Here)
I am in an amazing place in my life so now follow me as I move forward with the good and the bad, my continued wieght loss journey and just my life!!

Friday, March 27, 2015

Messed Up Week

This has been a messed up week for me.  I have been suffering with a stomach virus.  I've felt fine besides a small fever and nausea, so life has been normal except my eating and exercise.  I haven't been hungry so I haven't been eating, and that always throws me off track.  I haven't been to the gym since Monday, and I really miss it, and that is throwing me off.  I just feel off all together.  I never realized how much this new way of life is growing on me and how natural it has become.  I miss tracking my food, choosing good foods and adding in my treats.  I miss the gym, the sweat and the power.  I've been sad :(  And, I'm not even stepping on the scale because it will be a false loss and then a gain once I get my appetite back.

Since I don't have much to share regarding diet and such, I wanted to share the recent book  I am reading.  This book came to me through my sister, who started it and loved it.  It is called "The Girl On The Train".  It is wonderful!   If you liked "Gone Girl" and enjoy a good drama/mystery, it is one of those books that you do not want to stop reading.   Here is a little synopsis from the author.......

Rachel takes the same commuter train every morning.  Every day she rattles down the track, flashes past a stretch of cozy suburban homes, and stops at the signal that allows her to daily watch the same couple breakfasting on their deck.  She's even started to feel like she knows them.  "Jess and Jason", she calls them.  Their life-as she sees it-is perfect.  Not unlike the life she recently lost.

And then she sees something shocking.  It's only a minute until the train moves on, but it's enough.  Now everything's changed.  Unable to keep it to herself, Rachel offers what she knows to the police, and become inextricably entwined in what happens next, as well as in the lives of everyone involved.  Has she done more harm than good?

How fun right??  Reading a good book always lets me become someone else, lets me enter into entirely different worlds.  It is a wonderful way to relax and de-stress after a long day, and it gives me something to look forward to.  Especially when paired with a little chocolate :)


"You know you have read a good book 
when you turn the last page 
and feel as if you have lost a friend."

~Paul Sweeney


Monday, March 23, 2015

Sharing :)

Hi Friends!

Here is a little something that I'd like to share that I found while searching the internet. Please remember,  I am not a athletic trainer nor a dietary or health professional.  I simply thought this was a interesting article and I wanted to share it :)

Top 10 Reasons For Gaining Belly Fat
By Kevin DiDonato MS, CSCS, CES

Walking around the gym and working with clients there is a trend that I see. Extra weight carried around the belly or people wanting to get the ripped “six pack” look are the typical gym client today. What is the reason behind weight gain and why is it so hard to lose those extra pounds?

Here are the Top 10 reasons why people continue to gain weight. 

10. Medications

There are a growing number of people who are depressed or on medication for depression. These medications decrease metabolism regardless of changes to the diet, and the medications can change hormone levels in the body. This impacts our ability to lose weight and keep the weight off.

9. Underlying Disease/chronic disease

A growing number of people have underlying conditions like Thyroid Disease, Diabetes and Cushing’s disease (increased production of cortisol in the body) . People end up gaining weight and medical treatment is necessary to help in weight loss or slowing weight gain down. Due decreases in hormone levels, the body is unable to raise metabolism which burns extra calories

8. Genetics

Research shows that genetics may play a part in weight gain. Evidence shows some people may have higher chances of weight gain. However, even though genetics may play a role in weight gain, environmental factors and individual choices play a much bigger role in a person being overweight then genetics.

7. Stress

Our natural defense against stressors is the Fight or Flight system. With increased stress levels, our bodies prepare for us to fight or run. When stress levels rise, cortisol is released in the blood stream, causing changes in the body. Cortisol helps release sugar, stored in the muscles and liver, into the blood stream for quick energy use. This hormone is responsible for accumulation of fat in the abdomen which is hard for the body to get rid of. Cortisol suppresses the immune system making it harder to fight infections. Stress is always there so our cortisol levels are always high.

6. Portion Size

Have you ever super-sized your meal at a fast food chain? I am pretty sure most of us have. Portion control is a leading factor in weight gain. We tend to over eat foods that are high in fat and calories, and do it on a constant basis. We have lost our control over our portion control. Plates and cups are bigger, so taking in extra calories is easier.

5. Skipping meals

Skipping a meal is just as bad as portion control. It slows down your metabolism because of lack of calories and nutrients in the body to refuel us. When you skip a meal, 9 out of 10 times we overeat when the next meal comes. Food choices are usually affected and portion sizes become monstrous. This leads to too many calories, lethargic moods and storing those calories being stored as fat.

4. “Low-fat” Labeling

How many of us have been duped into thinking that low fat is low calorie? Low fat labeling means that there is 3 fat grams or less. Just because a label says low fat does not mean lower calorie. So before you grab that low fat product, remember look at the label and see how many calories and what the serving size is. We tend to over-eat low fat products, because we think low fat means low calories. Sometimes, eating the “real deal” can be better for you because of the serving size.

3. Lack of exercise

Strength training and cardiovascular exercise help increase the amount of calories that we burn. We find ourselves doing less and less exercise and eating more calories. The combination of lack of exercise and high calorie intake is why we gain weight. The more strength training, the more muscle we have, which leads to higher metabolism. This helps us burn more calories at rest and during exercise.

2. Slower Metabolic Rate

A slower metabolic rate helps with weight gain. Muscle is more metabolically active (meaning it burns more calories) than fat so we need more muscle than fat. One common myth is that as we age, we lose more muscle. If we stay active then this is not true. Continuing to do strength and cardiovascular exercises will keep the lean mass on our bodies which keeps out metabolism burning. Then we can continue to eat those extra calories and not worry about gaining weight.

And the Number 1 Reason why people gain weight….

1. Unhealthy Diet

Let’s face the facts: generally our diets are not good. Our diets are filled with processed foods that are easy to prepare and probably are not good for us. Portions are out of control and meals are lacking essential foods like fruits and veggies, and complex carbohydrates that help fuel our bodies. Fast food and prepackaged foods can lead to extra weight around the waist due to a lot of fat and extra calories.

Diet and exercise help monitor weight gain as we get older. Making better food choices, monitoring your portions and not skipping meals will help you lose weight. Substituting a healthy snack or meal replacement will help you not to skip meals and will give you plenty of nutrients to satisfy you until you eat again.

I thought this article was very informative.  I love finding information regarding weight loss and health.  I can never read to much about it, or talk to much about it.  Most of this I have read before, but it's nice to reaffirm what already know.   I know for myself, that numbers 7-10, do not pertain to me.  It is 1-6 that I need to work on :)   

I hope you find this article interesting.  I love sharing good finds with good friends :) 


 "Sharing should enrich everyone with more knowledge."

~Anna Monnar

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Fighting To Hold On

 Today, I am struggling with a little sadness.  Our youngest Dominic seems to be drifting farther and farther away from us.  We don't see him as much as we used to.  When he first went off to college he would come home on Sundays and do his laundry and eat dinner with us before going back.  Now, he is so busy with his friends, and his girlfriend (they have been dating for 2 years and he just recently got back together with her after a short break up).  Not only do we have to share him with school, and his friends, but now her too.  Not that I don't like her, she is a sweet girl, but yeah....Ok, so my rational voice in my head says that this is way normal, he is growing up and that is how it is supposed to be.  But my mommy voice is saying how sad it is.  How I don't have kids anymore to need me or want to see me.  I try to remind myself of the fact that we do not have children to raise them to live with us forever.  We have them to raise them to become independent functioning adults, but geese, days like these are so hard.  I seem to be fighting to hold on to something that I know I'm supposed to let go of.  I know I'm supposed to be "finding Lori" but some days it's hard.  I mean I miss my older two as well but at least I always had Dominic at home :)

So, sorry, but in lieu of my melancholy state today I feel the need to subject you to a montage of pictures of my 19 year old baby boy......

Two Years old.........

6 Years.....

14 Years.........

17 Years Old.......With The Enemy....Oops...I Mean Girlfriend  :) 

Last Year....18 Years Old........

College Boy.....19 Years Old


Those of you who still have little ones at home.  Enjoy every minute because time goes by so fast.  Trust me.  It only seems like yesterday...

Thanks for putting up with me today :) 

P.S.  I'm staying away from the kitchen!!


"I'll love you forever, 
I'll like you for always, 
as long as I'm living,
 my baby you'll be."

~Robert Munsch

Friday, March 20, 2015

Accountability Is Always Good!

Happy Friday!!

Today is my grocery day.  I used to love getting my groceries, but after 30 years of doing it every week, it's beginning to become a chore.  I love the fact that I'm not at work, and that I am out and about, but just the process of thinking out the weekly menu, buying all the food, then carrying it to the house and finally putting everything away is exhausting.  I usually wear my Fitbit so grocery day is always my best day in steps.  That's about the only good thing about grocery day  :) 

Here is today's total steps.

I'm still learning how to figure out my calories burned on my computer, so I'm not sure what it was today.  But it shows you online how many calories you can eat.  I still need to figure out how to get to 10,000 steps!! Any ideas?? :) 

I went to the gym this morning with my sister.  I am begining to really love being there.  I still never want to go in the morning, but once I'm there it's better.  Once I get done with my cardio, it's MUCH better :)  Strength training is so fun and empowering, I really love it.  Cardio is not my favorite.  I am still winded, and once my 20 minutes are up, my legs are wobbly.  But I realize that is to be expected if you're overweight like I am :)  It will get better and then I will thank myself for going!  

Friday Gym Time With Lori

I am at our favorite Snap Fitness location.  It has a nice room where you are able to do workouts following an video instructor on a huge screen.  We come in here and do our abs.  We will be trying a spin class next :)  EEKK!!

My food choices have been awesome this week.  I hope this weekend doesn't bring a slip, but if it does, I am determined to not let it go to far.  I am pretty happy with myself on how much more control I have over my food. .  I haven't really had a bad binge since Valentines' weekend, I think.  I'm proud of that.  I've realized food is my friend, not my enemy.

Thanks for letting my post my gym time pictures.  It really helped me stay accountable and go to the gym 3 times this week.  I need all the help I can get :) 


"It is not only what we do, but also what we do not do, 
for which we are accountable."

~John Bapsite Moliere 

Thursday, March 19, 2015

My First Selfie

Hi Friends!

It's late for me to be on, but I wanted to post my pictures from the gym today, so I am accountable. This first one is actually my first "selfie" I've ever taken.  I'm not quite sure how I feel about the fact that I even said the word selfie let a lone took one, but I guess times, they are a changing.  It wasn't on my list of things to do before I turn 50, but maybe it should have been :)   Regardless, my sister wasn't there to take the pictures for me so I was forced to conform with the masses.   I don't know how many picture people take of themselves before they get a good one, but this was hard.  This is not my best moment in pictures, but I didn't want people to start staring while I got a good one, so this is what you get.  I don't know why I look so mad in this picture.
Really I'm in a very good mood here :)

Wednesday Gym Time With Lori :) 

This is a new cardio machine I used today.  I really liked it a lot.  I did 20 minutes and burned 190 calories :)

I went to work out at a different Snap Fitness location.  I was a bit nervous walking in because I wasn't comfortable with the layout or the people, but I'm almost 50 you know, so I'm a big girl :)  I'm glad I pushed myself and went, because I started my day off feeling positive and really good about myself.  Plus, I din't feel to guilty when my sister sent home a piece of homemade pistachio cake with me for tonight.  Boy was it delicious!!


"Excuse me but can you keep your selfies to yourself?  
I did not sign up for a daily picture of you." 

~somee cards quotes

Monday, March 16, 2015

Happy On A Monday!!

Hello My Friends!!

Today I decided to weigh in.  It's been 3 weeks, and I told myself I would weigh in once a month, but I got itchy and pulled out the scale.  I've been doing great with my food.  A few gross slip ups on the weekends, but a lot better :)  I still allow myself chocolate, yummy coffee and cookies, but in moderation.  I am doing so much better at putting on the breaks and not over doing it so it doesn't turn into a full blown binge and a week long slide.  I think its because I have given myself permission to eat real food .  A friend, whos blog I follow, has a philosophy and its beginning to sink in.  Good for her for realizing this now, when she is young.   Here is her blog...she is just darling!!  Goal of Losing  It's taken me 30 plus years and hearing it from my sister, my mom and trying every diet out there even starvation, to realize that I can have it all, just in moderation.  This has allowed me to eat my M&M's while I watch TV.  This has allowed me be a real person and eat actual food when I am at a restaurant instead of having a salad with no dressing, and being the one who can't try a bit of dessert when everyone else is enjoying the yummyness.   It has given me the ability to feel free of diets and to challenge myself, by showing that I do have the strength to stop when I know I should.  It has made me eat more fruits and vegetables,  if I want something fun and good later.  I like this new attitude with food and the scale likes it too.........

Yay!!  I am down 3.2 pounds since last weigh in!  Like I said before, slow and steady wins the race.  That is 7 pounds, 6 weeks.  I'll defiantly take it :) 

What is also helping me out is going to the gym.  Not only do I feel great after working out, I also want to eat better, so I don't sabotage any progress I've made at the gym.   My sister comes with me so that is a huge help.  She makes it fun and it helps push me to actually go in the morning :)   This week I am going to try to go 3 times.  I am going to post pictures to help me stay accountable :)  

Mondays Gym Time With Lori :) 

So, I think I am falling in love with this machine.  I'm not sure what it is, but its kind of like an elliptical.  It has it's own TV screen and today I watched a re-run of "Southern Charm" on Bravo which I love as well  :)  I usually do at least 20 minutes of cardio.  I'm starting to feel a little less winded as quickly, so that's a good thing.  

Next we move over to the other side of the gym to the weight machines.  I love lifting weights.  It makes me feel strong and powerful :) 

I just love the Snap Fitness near me.  It is never too crowded and it has everything I need.  If you have one close to you and thought about trying it, here is the link Snap Fitness.  Sometimes you can get coupons for a free month just to try it out.  Any gym is good and if you are really good, you can just exercise at home.  I unfortunately need more.  I've tried to do stuff at home and made every excuse in the book not to do it :)  So if you do work out at home, I envy you, because I am just not that dedicated :)  

When we were finished, we stopped at McDonald's for coffee then at a small thrift store where I found 2 pair of shoes and my sister bought a beautiful print which is huge for just $15.00.  We also found some other small fun things.   

Great day.  Great workout.  Great weight loss.   I'm happy :) 


"You never walk out of the gym and say,
 'I shouldn't have gone.'"

~Taylor Kitsch


Saturday, March 14, 2015

A Wonderful Start To My Saturday!

Good morning friends!!
Just sharing my Saturday morning!!

Sigh......Just beautiful :)  I usually work on Saturdays, but today we have the day off because of a Benefit for a friend, that my sister and brother in law are working at.  So, I decided to treat myself to a delicious cup of fun coffee.  Now, every cup of coffee is fun to me, but this one is a yummy, sweet, cup of deliciousness.  First I wanted to show off my new coffee cup I bought.  I found it at T.J. Maxx for just $4.99.  Yay!  I just love a new coffee cup.  For me, it just makes coffee that much better when you drink it out of a beautiful or fun cup :)  My first coffee of the morning was just regular coffee with a little creamer.  It was only 15 calories.  Now, my second cup was my fun coffee.  It has Vanilla Cinnamon Creamer, Fat Free Ready Whip, and Cinnamon sprinkles on top!  The creamer was 35 calories and 1 gram of fat per tablespoon, and I used 2 tablespoons.  The Ready Whip is just 5 calories and 0 fat per 2 tablespoons, so of course I used about 4.  So my total calories for this creamy goodness was around 80 with 2 grams of fat.  Really not to bad for heaven in a cup :)  Sometimes you just have to splurge, and I never regent doing it with coffee :)   

Last night I met Blayne out for dinner.  I ended up ordering a cheese pizza, which was delicious, but probably wasn't good for my calorie intake.  I only had 3 small pieces and I figured, I worked out in the morning and ate really well all day, so I'm not to worried. Besides, I was with my daughter and doesn't that make all food free of calories??  Anyway, it defiantly makes it all better :)  

Later today Greg, Blayne and I plan on going to the Benefit and hopefully win something at the Chinese Auction!!  Wish me luck :) 

So, I spent my morning snuggled up with a blanket, my kindle fire and my hot cup of yummy coffee.  Looking out my window at this amazing morning, I felt absolutely wonderful!!

Have a wonderful Saturday!!


"What on earth could be more luxurious than 
a sofa, a book, and a cup of coffee?"

~Anthony Trollope 

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

It All Began With Harry Potter

Like I mentioned,  I began my "finding myself" journey in August after I realized that I had one more year before I turned 50.  After looking at my life, I realized there were some things I wanted to change before that happened.  Things about myself physically, emotionally and mentally.

The most important to me is the physical part.  That means to lose weight and get stronger and healthy.  I am a sedentary person and I know that has to change now if I want to be an active healthy older Lori down the road.  I don't want to be at the health level and weight that I am now.  I really do want to be more active and not so lazy.  Joining the gym, not sitting around as much and counting calories is a step in that direction.  Physically, I want to be the Lori Greg married and the Lori I know I can be!

The emotional part I need to change is because I am a softy.  I take everything to heart and take everything personally.  I really want to take steps to change this.  Sometimes when I try sticking up for myself or voicing my opinions, I just end up wondering for the rest of the week if that person is mad at me.  I have been working on this and am doing better.  In the past, if I really didn't want to do something, if asked I would do it.  Now, I've learned to say no if it is something I don't want to do.  It's hard when God makes you a certain way to change, but I really do want to be stronger with my opinions.

Lastly, the mental part.  Mentally to me is the way I view myself.  This is just me finding myself as a whole.  Doing things just for me.  Doing things I normally wouldn't do, because I was busy with my children, just never took the time to do them for myself, or was to concerned what other people thought. Finding out who I really am now that the kids are grown and basically gone.  It is finding my independence.  Finding my confidence to just do things I really want to do without validation from Greg, or other moms.  It is deciding what to do with the second half of my life.

As I told you before I made that first step in that area in August.
Here is a picture of that.....

Oh yes, it is a tattoo!  I've always wanted one....forever....but I am a baby and was always just to scared to get one.  It is on my wrist, and it is a symbol for Harry Potter.  Daughter Blayne and I got them together because we just love (obsessed with) the Harry Potter Books.  I was nervous that I was "to old" for a tattoo.  What will people think?  It being on my wrist I was nervous because it is there for all to see. But I realized, who cares??  It's my wrist and my decision.  Right?  :)  Besides, if I think I will be going somewhere where it really isn't appropriate, then I cover it up with a bracelet :)   I just love it.  I love catching it out of the corner of my eye because it is a visual of who I am becoming.  Independent, strong, fun, confident Lori :)  


"A girl should be two things:  Who and What she wants."

~Coco Chanel

Sunday, March 8, 2015

I Am Truly Blessed!!

Friday night we had a girls night with the family.  We went to a Chinese restaurant called Chopstix.  We had such a fun time, even though my daughter Blayne couldn't be there. Unfortunately, she had already made plans to go to a Cocktails and Color event with friends.   My niece and sister in law are leaving next week for South Carolina and we wanted to get together before they left.  Anyway, I was a bit nervous about the food choices and the probability of me going over board at dinner and beyond.  Since it is Lent and I am in observance with no meat on Fridays, I knew I was looking at a vegetable dish.  I did some googling before we left and found out that the Vegetables with Garlic Sauce wasn't so bad calories wise, with around 250 for about 4 oz.  I'm not sure how many ounces I ate but it wasn't too bad I'm sure.  I also opted for the brown rice for about 220 calories for one cup.  I probably had about one and half to two cups so that's that!  I was pretty happy with myself and my choices and I didn't suffer at all because it was amazingly delicious!!
Of course, here are some pictures from our fun night!

My meal!!

My beautiful niece and her fabulous drink Sex on the Beach 
and her awesome looking appetizer sushi of some type :) 

My beautiful family and friend Darlene :) 

Our waitress was simply delightful, the presentation of the food was just  beautiful and best of all, I got to enjoy a wonderful girls night out with my family!  I am truly blessed. 


"It's fun to get together and have something good to eat.  
That is what life is all about...enjoying things."

~Julia Child

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

This is My Life

As you can tell, a big part of me finding myself, is my weight problem.  It is one of the things I am hoping to change this year.  It is one of the things that I feel is not really me.  I am an older, wiser, empty-nester who isn't defined by her food, and who doesn't need food to turn to.  By finding who I am now, I am hoping to change my eating habits, with no reason to binge, no reason to eat my boredom or my stress away.  On Friday I took a big step in that direction and I wanted to tell you all about it.  I was getting my groceries, which is an all day event for me because I like to shop at a few different stores.  I like different products at different stores.  Besides getting my groceries, on Fridays, I usually brows consignment stores and TJ Max and stuff too, and you all know that takes time :)   Anyway,  I went to the gym and started out great with my food.  I did wonderful actually all day, until I hit the last grocery store.  They have the most delicious cream filled donuts there and usually they are all out, but Friday, they had three left.  I immediately, before thinking grab all three and put them in a bag.  Now, do you ever just eat something or buy something without remember that you are watching your calories??  I do that sometimes.  I  buy and eat like I am a 100 pound teenager.  I just forget.  So, as I was moving along, I began thinking.  What the crap am I doing?  Do I really want these??  YES.  I should just put them back.  NO.  I didn't.  Instead I built up this entire scenario about stocking up on my binge foods and eating them all that night (after Greg went to bed of course).  I got so excited about the thought of doing this that I began shopping just for that night.  Caramels are one of my down falls, so I bought some in the bulk section.  A bulk bag of  red coins, and three candy bars made their way into my cart, along with two different Hostess products, because cream filled anything is my dirty little secret.  I had also bought Greg some goodies for the week that I knew I could get into and replenish before he even knew.  All throughout the store tho, I kept going back and forth about doing this.  Yes I want to eat.  It will be so fun and satisfying, mental and emotionally, and it's going to taste so good.  No I don't want to eat because I just worked out, did good with my food, and I know how bad I will feel  when the night is over and the food is gone. So guess what?  I caved.  I purchased everything in my cart and added a slice of pizza and a Diet Cherry Vanilla Coke on the way out for the ride home.  I always think, if I'm going to do it, I might as well do it up good.  That's my all or nothing problem I told you about earlier.  Any way, I actually couldn't wait to get into my car to scarf down my pizza.  I took a bite, took a drink of my Diet Coke, and do you know what happened??  Well,  I really still don't know, but something just hit me.  I think just the thought of the binge was the fun thing, and when I tried, I just couldn't.  I dumped out the Diet Coke, and smashed the pizza up in the container and tied it up in a bag, just so I couldn't change my mind.  I began to drive home thinking of the donuts that were packed away.  I began frantically reaching for them in the back seat.  I wanted them so badly.  I took one out and just looked at it.  (All while driving by the way which is do dangerous.)  I thought about the pizza and just, for whatever reason, decided that I didn't want to do this.  I smashed up all three donuts in their bag,  so I couldn't change my mind, found all three candy bars, bulk items and the Hostess Cakes and put them in a grocery bag that I had emptied.  I quickly pulled into a Burger King and just threw everything away.  Now, I don't like wasting food, but this was like my drug, so I didn't feel guilty about throwing drugs away.  I began driving and felt so good about myself.  No, I didn't have that fun binge to look forward to, but I had Greg at home and a quiet night with a movie and then my Kindle to look forward to.  I used to binge after Greg, who goes to bed at 9:00 most nights, and my kids went to bed after a long busy day of kid/teen stuff.   It was my time.  My hobby.  My fun thing that I had to look forward to.  What I am beginning to learn is,  I don't need that now, because all day it is my time.  I don't have to share it with my kids or even Greg, because I am a person.  I am important.  I am putting myself first.  I am Lori and it is my day, my time, and my life. :)


"No matter who you are, no matter what you do, 
you absolutely, positively have the power to change."

~Bill Phillips

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Fried Rice Anyone??

Last night I made a delicious recipe that I wanted to share with you.  It is called Skinny Chicken Fried Rice.   I am skeptical of new recipes.  You find a recipe that looks yummy. All of the comments under the recipe are positive and go on and on about how good it tastes.  Then you buy all the ingredient, make the food and umm...yeah.  It doesn't taste like you planned and maybe you don't even like it at all.  This happens to me sometimes when trying new recipes.  This time was different.  This time it was a success!!  :)    Here is the link from the site that I found it on.


She has some yummy looking ideas here that I am going to check out!!

There are 252 calories for a one cup serving.  Let me tell you, it is worth it if you enjoy fried rice.  Now, I omitted the chicken just because I was to lazy to make it, which also eliminated the need for the broth, which lowered the calorie count for me.  I also did not add in the green onion, only because I completely forgot to buy them :)  I loved it!!
This is what mine looked like :)

Doesn't it look delicious??  :)  I'm having leftovers tonight!! Yay!!


"Learn how to cook.  Try new recipes. 
 Learn from your mistakes. Above all, have fun."

~Julie Child

Sunday, March 1, 2015

An Emotional Afternoon

Today started off like a wonderful Sunday.  I went to Mass and sang in the choir, I spent time teaching my little second graders at CCD (bible school), my sister and I met at my parents house for coffee, and I get home to find out our youngest son just slid off the road and put his car in the ditch.  He is fine.  Not hurt at all.  His car was just a junker car to begin with but my husband, who left to pull him out, just called and said he will have to get a tow and who knows what kind of damage was done.  What I am really upset about was instead of calling us for a ride, he walked home.  Now, this is a kid that wears shorts and slip on shoes every day of his life.  Thankfully it was warmer today than it has been.  It is 25 degrees, but the roads are snow covered and it is just a single lane both direction road, plus it was about 4 miles away and snowing.  I am just sad that he had to walk.  Is that silly?  He's 19 but he is still our baby.  He said he didn't want to disappoint us by calling.  I felt horrible for him that he felt so bad about it.  Greg and I both told him that we are more upset about him walking than the car being in the ditch.  Sometimes I don't know what goes through kids' minds.  Did he not think we weren't going to find out anyway?  Maybe he needed that time to think, so that's why he walked.  He could have called his cousin for a ride.  Regardless, there was my baby out in the snow and cold and dangerous roads walking home.  URGGG!!  I may be just going overboard, but for some reason it just hit me and I began to cry.  I called my sister after they left, to vent a bit and just get things out.  That helped.  I decided to vent to you all and this is helping too just getting things out.  I realize that it could have been so much worse, and I thanked God that he wasn't hurt, but again, he is our baby and I guess I just kind of felt like I should have been there to help him, to pick him up, to hug him, but instead he took that long walk home alone. When our children are little, you are always there when they need you.  It is just hard to not be there.  No matter how old they are, regardless if they live with you or not, you still worry about them, and what happens to them still impacts your day.  I know I'm being over emotional but hey, this kid-growing-up-thing is hard :)


"Mothers hold their children's hands for a short while
but their hearts forever."