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Sunday, March 22, 2015

Fighting To Hold On

 Today, I am struggling with a little sadness.  Our youngest Dominic seems to be drifting farther and farther away from us.  We don't see him as much as we used to.  When he first went off to college he would come home on Sundays and do his laundry and eat dinner with us before going back.  Now, he is so busy with his friends, and his girlfriend (they have been dating for 2 years and he just recently got back together with her after a short break up).  Not only do we have to share him with school, and his friends, but now her too.  Not that I don't like her, she is a sweet girl, but yeah....Ok, so my rational voice in my head says that this is way normal, he is growing up and that is how it is supposed to be.  But my mommy voice is saying how sad it is.  How I don't have kids anymore to need me or want to see me.  I try to remind myself of the fact that we do not have children to raise them to live with us forever.  We have them to raise them to become independent functioning adults, but geese, days like these are so hard.  I seem to be fighting to hold on to something that I know I'm supposed to let go of.  I know I'm supposed to be "finding Lori" but some days it's hard.  I mean I miss my older two as well but at least I always had Dominic at home :)

So, sorry, but in lieu of my melancholy state today I feel the need to subject you to a montage of pictures of my 19 year old baby boy......


Two Years old.........



6 Years.....



14 Years.........



17 Years Old.......With The Enemy....Oops...I Mean Girlfriend  :) 




Last Year....18 Years Old........



College Boy.....19 Years Old


SIGH!!!!!!!!!

Those of you who still have little ones at home.  Enjoy every minute because time goes by so fast.  Trust me.  It only seems like yesterday...

Thanks for putting up with me today :) 

P.S.  I'm staying away from the kitchen!!

xoxo

"I'll love you forever, 
I'll like you for always, 
as long as I'm living,
 my baby you'll be."

~Robert Munsch

2 comments:

  1. You are always a Mom...it's just the mothering part that is not needed as much...that's a good thing!!
    Here are two quotes for you :)

    "The mother-child relationship is paradoxical and, in a sense, tragic. It requires the most intense love on the mother's side, yet this very love must help the child grow away from the mother, and to become fully independent." -Erich Fromm

    "It’s not easy being a mother. If it were easy, fathers would do it."
    ~From the television show The Golden Girls
    Love ya C

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  2. Almost forgot...I miss Dean too!! I've seen him almost everyday since he was born :( PJ is next.

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