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Sunday, November 29, 2015

Wonderful Weekend But....HELP!!

Happy Thanksgiving Weekend!  Yes, I am still in Holiday mode, we have been off work since Wednesday, so I've just been shopping, and eating.  The shopping part has been wonderful....The eating part, well, fun at the time, but I'm paying for it now.

Now, just a few fun tidbits from the past few days ;)

Thursday, I as tradition dictates, I watched the Macy's Parade.  I was a bit disappointed.  Any more, it seems they are now constantly plugging new TV shows and Broadway plays.  I remember noticing that last year as well and remember being irritated by it.  Never the less, I watched it while preparing my Thanksgiving meal.  This year my sister had my family, and our parents over for dinner. We each made a turkey with stuffing and gravy and then spit up the sides.  Last year I made dinner for just my family and we all went over to my sister's for dessert, so it was wonderful for us all to eat together again. Our brothers family had dinner at their house, and then later, all joined us for desert :)  We are just to big anymore for all of us to be at one table so this works really well.

This is me, Connie, and our Mom.  Our friend went to Italy on a food tour and bottled this delicious wine and brought it home for us!  Here we are toasting our thanks and love to Jeanie :)

 Dominic and my nephew Paul, playing games with my great nephews :)  

Connie, Julie, my SIL and I 
Love her turkey hat!! 

I am disappointed that I didn't get any picture of Blayne or Greg, but the day went by so fast!!

Saturday, Connie, my sister, daughter Blayne and I went to a craft show.  It was in a beautiful old theater, in the "big city" near us :)  I bought a few fun things, just for me, and we had a wonderful time!!

This is the venue.  
The Erie Warner Theater.  Just beautiful!!

Some of my purchases!
This, Blayne bought for me
for when I redo my bathroom Victorian!

Also for my bathroom :)

A cute little mitten ornament 
for an ornament exchange later this week :)

And now....The not so fun stuff........

First off, I made a pact with myself that I would keep going to the gym throught this little vacaction from work.  Every year it's the same thing.  I think I can just stop all life stuff when I'm on vacation, but when that includes the gym, it's just that much more harder to go back.  So, did I go?   Nope!  I feel terrible for it and so out of my routine, which doesn't help my eating at all!  Grrr!!

On Friday, I had my WW meeting.  I was so excited to go and get back on track after Wednesday and taste testing all my deserts that I made, and then Thursday just plain old over eating everything.  My meeting was inspiring and motivating, and we had a free no weigh in pass which I opted for.  I was determined to get back on track after leaving.  I don't know what happened, or where it took a turn, but needless to say, as of last night, Saturday, I am still not back on track. Now, I know the old saying about not letting a few mistakes ruin your progress or whatever, but it does make me feel like a failure.  I hate feeling like I've lost control and I wont ever get it back.  I am afraid to step on the scale because of the damage I've done, and because I am afraid that it will just make me want to continue eating, because what the heck......Then, I think of my WW leader and all of my new friends there and it reminds me of all that I have accomplished and that I am not the only one who falls.  I am hoping it will be enough to get me back on track today!!!  Sigh!  The struggles of a binge-er!!

As for today?  I feel horrible for saying this, but I am not go to Mass this morning.  I  feel so gross.  My fingers are swollen, and my stomach is crampy and touchy and I just don't feel like going.  Is that bad?  I know it is.  I know it shouldn't matter, but when I am in this food fog, I don't really feel like doing anything. I know what I need to do!  Get off the couch and go to the gym....Or at least a walk.  I still need to do Alissa's Thankful Journey 5K!!! Geesh!!  Later Blayne, my sister and I are going over to the salon to decorate for Christmas.  I am hoping to be feeling more like Lori by then ;)

Send my your strength to get back on track today ;)  I need it :)



  1. Well, at least you took at least one or two pics on Thanksgiving. I didn't take one, lol. I think you look amazing in the photo with your sister and Mom!!. You are not alone! Definitely the food fog from Thursday continued through the weekend. While I don't think I was as bad as I could have been, I certainly didn't do well, and will be lucky to only gain 2 lbs. But you can do it!! Even if Monday doesn't bring you back then Tuesday you must!!! You are inspiring me with your blog, not just on the weight loss struggle but in general!. I love your blog! Also, I had forgotten just how much you and I had in common, from three kids: boy,girl, boy, to loving books, to the weight struggle, to loving talking about it and of course Harry Potter!! I had forgotten. So forgive yourself and just do one small positive thing in the next couple of days to get back on track!!

    1. Thanks Chris, for the kind words and the motivation! It helps to know I am not alone. That is what is wonderful about getting your feelings out. There is others out there to support you!! And, we really do have so much in common it's wonderful :)

  2. You've been doing so great! You ARE doing great! Sometimes we get off track for a few days, but you know what? It's time to get up and dust yourself off, pull up those big girl panties, and get back to it! You are SO close to 199, a HUGE milestone! I know you can do this--I believe in you!

    1. Thanks for the vote of confidence and encouraging words! Those big girl panties are up up and they aren't going anywhere for awhile!! :)

  3. Use the food fog feelings that you are in right now and remember it! Use it as a learning situation. Yeah, I know...you say that every time. I do at least. But one of these times maybe it will click and I'll figure it out once and for all!

    1. You're right! You think I'd remember this feeling and not want it again. After this last fall of grace, I think I might have learned my lesson :) Thanks!!

  4. Sometimes life just does happen! What matters is you getting back on track and not letting it free fall! You can do it!

    1. Thanks!! I guess that is what is most important...that I am getting back on track! It just took a bit for it to happen :)

  5. You got some fantastic family pics! You all look so happy! I am a little late to this post, so I am hopeful you are back on track...you got this!