So, I'm not quite sure what to write next. I guess I will explain a little about my need for change before I turn the big 50. You see, I met my hubby when I was 16. We dated a few years, then got married a month before I turned 20. We were together 2 years and then had our first baby, a girl we named Blayne. She was followed 18 months later by her brother Connor. When they were 6 and 8, their little brother Dominic came along. These were wonderful years. I threw myself into being their mom. I was fortunate enough that I was able to be a stay at home mom until Dominic turned 5 then I started my dog grooming business. Anyways, long story I know. The thing is, now there are gone. Well Dominic is technically still home, but away at college and we are now empty nesters. When he left for school in August, I realized....I don't know who I am anymore. I really don't feel like "Mom", and I haven't been "Lori" in 27 years. I think it was my mistake that I gave up my identity when I began having children. I never built up friendships because I never worked outside the home to meet friends, and I was too "busy" with kids to take time out for me and fun adult stuff. Now I am struggling to find me....To find my life without children. I began this journey in August. I have done a few things to kick it off, which I will tell you about in the next few weeks, but I feel like I have a long way to go. I feel the need to change mentally, physically and just try to become more independent with my actions, words, and really, with my life.