I don't know what's wrong with me lately. The weather has been terrible. Last Wednesday we woke up to about 12 new inches of snow. The temperatures have been close to freezing, and although I have lived here all my life and am used to this, I am getting a bit tired of it. Sigh! I have a few rooms in my house that are in desperate need of cleaning, and that makes me feel stressed. I haven't started organizing my photos like I wanted to. My energy levels are nil. I am in a slump!! I just kind of feel like my life is spinning out of control. I need to gather all this mess up and offer it up to God and beg for help!
I've been off track with my food, which is probably the main reason for all the other stuff. I hate how my eating can dictate the rest of my life. I missed my last WW meeting and that is never good. I missed my weigh in with my accountability group and I needed that. My mind is playing games with me. Making me second guess everything that I've been doing diet wise. Trying to justify my over eating of the junk food. I'm starting to doubt myself that I am worth changing for. I hate that. I need to refocus and get back on track. I know what I need to do, but I just can't find the will or the energy to do it.
Anyway, thanks for listening to my depressing rambling today. I apologize, but I needed to share. It helps me to move on and this is the place where I can do that and not feel ashamed for my failures.
We are in this amazing season of Lent and I am being lazy, feeling sorry for myself, and being a glutton. This has to stop! I need some quite time in prayer and mediation....Or better yet, I need a good slap across the face to snap me out of this! Any takers?? :)