Putting Me First

Hello Friends!

I thought I would try my hand at blogging again. I remember how much better I felt whenever I was stressed, or worried, or disappointed in my weight loss progress, after sharing in this little space. A space all my own. Sometimes it's hard to carve out time to do something like this, because it is just for me. As women, we tend to take care of everyone else first, to make sure everyone else is content and doing what they want, and we kind of forget about ourselves. We tend to be very unselfish. As a Mom to 3 adult children, who haven't needed me daily for years, you would think that that I had this part all figured out, but I don't. It's hard to change the way you've always been. I now have tons of time to do anything I want to do.....things just for me. It's about time I did them.

My brother, who is just a year and 6 days older than I, passed away the beginning of this month. It felt different loosing my brother, than it did losing my dad. Your siblings belong to you. You survived childhood together....learned together.... You are the same. Same DNA. The same two people made you. I feel like there is a hole left in me....It really feels like a part of me is gone. Thinking about how our lives parallel each others, is making me begin to really think about things. If God can take him at 61, then anything can happen. I need to make changes, before it's to late. Tomorrow is never promised.

I realize there are things I need to change.  Things I should have changed a long time ago when I really began focusing on "finding Lori".  Time goes by and before you know it life is closer to being over, than it was beginning.

First things first. I have to take better care of myself. I have said this before and have been saying it for years. Even after my dad passed, I swore to myself, and to him in prayer, that I would change and get healthy. It's been almost 7 years and I am at the same place as I was then. Unhealthy and out of shape.

Next, I need to find some hobbies. Everyone I talk to about my eating habits, and sedentary lifestyle has said that I need to find things I like to do, so I can find joy in them and not in food. Makes sense. I just need to do it. I have plenty of time. I have no excuses. I just need to let go of the "Do-Everything-For-Everyone-Else" thoughts, and change.  I pledge to work on me from now on.  Selfish or not,  I will do it.  I have to....before it's really to late.

Time to be selfish!
Time to take my life back and get healthy and lose the weight once and for all!
To find out what I love!
Time to put Me first!!

xoxo