A New Year, A New Me

2015 was an amazing year.  I started this blog.  I turned 50.  I got a tattoo :)  I came to terms with being an empty nester.  I found myself.  My life has changed because of it all.  I am a different person today than I was a year ago.  

Physically I am the same.  I didn't loose as much weight as I intended to loose, but that really doesn't matter, because what I did loose is much more important.  I lost the need to constantly think about my next meal.  I lost the need to put food first all day, every day.  Most importantly, I lost the need to feel happy or sad just because of  what I did or didn't eat that day.  Well, it's like 75 percent better :)  I am also better about not being so self conscious about my body.  It took me this long to realize that my weight does not dictate my mood, or my actions.  For the first time, this summer I went to the beach by myself and removed my over sized cover up and just enjoyed life.  I didn't care who saw me.  I don't want to look back at my life and wish I could have done this or should have done that.  I'm going to be doing it now!

 Mentally and emotionally, I have realized that I am so much more than Greg's wife, and Blayne, Connor and Dominic's mom.  I am Lori.  I've been here all along, it just took me awhile to uncover me and put me in the front.  Now that I'm back, it has changed the way I think, the way I socialize, I am a better friend, a better sister, a better mom, and a better wife.

 

I have changed, and grown so much this past year.  This blog is a big part of my transformation.  I never thought, a year ago, when I started putting my thoughts, fears, failures, and my successes in writing, that it would help me in so many areas of my life.  I've received so much support, advice and love from people, that making changes became easy, and I thank you all for that!!  I have surrounded myself with positive people, here and in life, and there is no other place to go but forward and that's exactly where I'm going.  Forward!

I have a new set of goals for this year.  Honestly, I can't remember all of mine from last year.  I made some, wrote them down, and then really never looked at them again.  I know that weight loss was top on the list.  It always is.  I just cant seem to get that right. :)  Oh well, this year I am putting them in writing, so I can actually remember them and work on them :)

Now, thinking about the "gym time" one, that is really not realistic.  There are going to be many many times that I just don't want to go, so I wont, but when I look at this later, I want to remember how passionate I was feeling about needing the gym.  Does that make sense?  Anyway, this is my starting point.  I'm hoping that I can follow through with some of these.  

There are things in my life that I wish I would have done sooner.  Things that I wish I had the courage to try, the strength to change.  But do you know what?  It's never to late to change.  It's never to late to try something new.  It is a brand new year, and with my new found attitude and outlook on who I am, I can do anything!

Happy New Year!

xoxo