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My blog was started to help me come to terms with turning 50, to find myself as I become an empty nester, and to help me with my weight loss journey. (Update Here)
I am in an amazing place in my life so now follow me as I move forward with the good and the bad, my continued wieght loss journey and just my life!!


Monday, November 30, 2015

Goals Equal Success

Hi Friends!

Just a little update after my few days of failure.  I stayed on track all day Sunday and all day today! I didn't go over my points at all!!  I am pretty proud that I was able to get back in line.  Sunday I was busy most of the day and that helped.   This morning my sister and I hit the gym early and that always helps me eat healthy the rest of the day!  Thanks to everyone for all the positive thoughts and for giving me the encouragement I needed to get back in control!!



 I have a few December goals that I need to share.  It helps me stay accountable when someone else knows my goals :) 

#1.  Track every thing, every day.
       This is the most important thing
 for me right now!

#2.  Only three junk type foods per week.
        I need to limit these foods or I go overboard!

#3.  Stay within my points each day.
       Even with my junk foods,
I will not go over my points!

#4.  Gym at least twice a week.
        I really need this to feel strong,
 to help me stay on track with my food, 
and to make sure
that I have this time to just unwind! 

My WW leader gave us a little Christmas bell to remind us of  where we wanted to be on January 2nd, which she had us write down.  I wrote that I wanted to be under 199 pounds and still in control.  My December goals will help me see this when January comes around.  I put the little bell on my key ring, so I can see it daily and remember what I have to do!!  I need goals and reminders to help me stay focused, keep me motivated and to help me get where I want to be!!


Let's start December off on the right track!  Stay motivated, stay positive and stay focused on whatever you are working on in your life :)

xoxo


"The victory of success is half won
when one gains the habit of setting
and achieving goals."

~Og Mandino


Sunday, November 29, 2015

Wonderful Weekend But....HELP!!

Happy Thanksgiving Weekend!  Yes, I am still in Holiday mode, we have been off work since Wednesday, so I've just been shopping, and eating.  The shopping part has been wonderful....The eating part, well, fun at the time, but I'm paying for it now.

Now, just a few fun tidbits from the past few days ;)

Thursday, I as tradition dictates, I watched the Macy's Parade.  I was a bit disappointed.  Any more, it seems they are now constantly plugging new TV shows and Broadway plays.  I remember noticing that last year as well and remember being irritated by it.  Never the less, I watched it while preparing my Thanksgiving meal.  This year my sister had my family, and our parents over for dinner. We each made a turkey with stuffing and gravy and then spit up the sides.  Last year I made dinner for just my family and we all went over to my sister's for dessert, so it was wonderful for us all to eat together again. Our brothers family had dinner at their house, and then later, all joined us for desert :)  We are just to big anymore for all of us to be at one table so this works really well.

This is me, Connie, and our Mom.  Our friend went to Italy on a food tour and bottled this delicious wine and brought it home for us!  Here we are toasting our thanks and love to Jeanie :)



 Dominic and my nephew Paul, playing games with my great nephews :)  



Connie, Julie, my SIL and I 
Love her turkey hat!! 



I am disappointed that I didn't get any picture of Blayne or Greg, but the day went by so fast!!

Saturday, Connie, my sister, daughter Blayne and I went to a craft show.  It was in a beautiful old theater, in the "big city" near us :)  I bought a few fun things, just for me, and we had a wonderful time!!

This is the venue.  
The Erie Warner Theater.  Just beautiful!!



Some of my purchases!
This, Blayne bought for me
for when I redo my bathroom Victorian!



Also for my bathroom :)




A cute little mitten ornament 
for an ornament exchange later this week :)



And now....The not so fun stuff........

First off, I made a pact with myself that I would keep going to the gym throught this little vacaction from work.  Every year it's the same thing.  I think I can just stop all life stuff when I'm on vacation, but when that includes the gym, it's just that much more harder to go back.  So, did I go?   Nope!  I feel terrible for it and so out of my routine, which doesn't help my eating at all!  Grrr!!

On Friday, I had my WW meeting.  I was so excited to go and get back on track after Wednesday and taste testing all my deserts that I made, and then Thursday just plain old over eating everything.  My meeting was inspiring and motivating, and we had a free no weigh in pass which I opted for.  I was determined to get back on track after leaving.  I don't know what happened, or where it took a turn, but needless to say, as of last night, Saturday, I am still not back on track. Now, I know the old saying about not letting a few mistakes ruin your progress or whatever, but it does make me feel like a failure.  I hate feeling like I've lost control and I wont ever get it back.  I am afraid to step on the scale because of the damage I've done, and because I am afraid that it will just make me want to continue eating, because what the heck......Then, I think of my WW leader and all of my new friends there and it reminds me of all that I have accomplished and that I am not the only one who falls.  I am hoping it will be enough to get me back on track today!!!  Sigh!  The struggles of a binge-er!!

As for today?  I feel horrible for saying this, but I am not go to Mass this morning.  I  feel so gross.  My fingers are swollen, and my stomach is crampy and touchy and I just don't feel like going.  Is that bad?  I know it is.  I know it shouldn't matter, but when I am in this food fog, I don't really feel like doing anything. I know what I need to do!  Get off the couch and go to the gym....Or at least a walk.  I still need to do Alissa's Thankful Journey 5K!!! Geesh!!  Later Blayne, my sister and I are going over to the salon to decorate for Christmas.  I am hoping to be feeling more like Lori by then ;)

Send my your strength to get back on track today ;)  I need it :)

xoxo



Sunday, November 22, 2015

A Goodbye

Before I begin........My weigh in on Friday went well.  I was so nervous all week, because I have been seeing success and I know my body and it puts on the breaks once in a while, but I was happy with my loss.  


I lost 1.8 pounds!  That makes 18 pounds total!  I am so happy with my process so far!!
More on that later...... 

Switching gears.....

I have a child who lives more than 30 minutes away from me.  Except for Blayne and staying at school, I've never had to say this before.  My middle, my son Connor, 26,  has moved away.  He is about 5 1/2 hours away from us now.   His girlfriend is ill.  She has kidney failure.  This is from something she was born with, and needs to be near her Mom. So, they packed up and moved.  It was a spur of the moment thing.  Their apartment lease was up and his summer job, cooking at the lake side resort, had ended.  His winter job was just beginning and he was OK with letting it go and his girlfriend needed her Mother, so they just moved.  That is how it is with my Connor.  He has a gypsy soul!  He called me and said, I know this is quick and  please don't be mad, but we need to do this.  I told him I wasn't mad, maybe a little sad (honestly a lot sad, but I didn't want him to know that).  I told him his father and I supported anything he wanted to do.  He said he was nervous because he never lived more than 20 minutes from us and his home.  I told him I was proud of him and his decision, and that he would be fine.  Then, I hung up and I cried.   Connor is a small town boy, and has moved 15 minutes from Philadelphia, Pa which is a huge city.  What will he do?  He will thrive!  He needed this move.   A little back story.....Connor is my wild child.  My, take the risk and worry about the consequences later, child.  We always said Connor is living the fraternity life and isn't even in college.  He's not bad.  He just makes poor choices and is the one most likely to get caught, and has gotten caught.  He spent some time in trouble for DUI's...yes, more than one.  Then spent some time confined to the house with an ankle monitor.  Then when he was free to go, he met Emily.  She more or less saved him.  He now has a purpose.  A reason to work, stay on track, and she keeps him away from his old friends he used to hang around with.  This move is good for him.  He needs to get away to find himself even more.  Maybe being away from us will be good for him too.  Not that he every relied on us for help.  Both our older kids are super independent, but just knowing that we aren't just a few minutes away will make him into an even stronger man.   Yes, this is a good move for him.....really it is :)    The hardest thing is we will not see him at Thanksgiving or Christmas.  His girlfriend, with her illness, is on dialysis, and can not be away over night.  This will be tough.  Being a boy, we didn't see him as much as we see our daughter Blayne, but we always spent the holidays together.  Sigh!  I know many parents have children that live far away, and I know that really 5 1/2 hours really isn't THAT far away, but it is when for 26 years of his life, he's lived close.  I don't know how others do it, not seeing their kids.  My friends who have kids in the military, hardly ever see them, and have the added worry about their safety.  I guess it's something that just you have to get used to.....you have no choice.  It's all part of life.  Do we want them with us forever?  No.  Like I said before, God didn't give us our children to have them forever.  He gave them to us to raise, and let go of, so they can make their own lives, make their own choices, make their own families.  But why does it have to be so hard?  :)  

xoxo






Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Folklore and Friends

Thursday night, my sister Connie, my daughter Blayne and I went to a fun event at our nearby Peninsula.  The Erie Peninsula is a beautiful area about 30 minutes from our house, with 11 miles of beaches, concert spaces, a lighthouse, lagoons, pavilions, and an environmental center.  Of course any place like this would have tons of history and folk lore.  So, on Thursday night, we went to The Evening Fireside Talk.  Equipped with our favorite mug for coco and a nice warm blanket, we arrived to find it in an indoor pavilion with a huge roaring fire!


We had such a nice time listening to the history of the park, and some creepy folk lore and stories that have been passed along for years!

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On Friday, after my WW meeting, Connie and I met our friend Angie for coffee!!  It was Angie's birthday earlier in the week so we brought her some fun gifts and we sat and talking for hours :)


Angie on the left, my sister Connie on the right!!


Everyone always thinks that they are sisters!  Connie and Angie have been friends since Jr. High (That's what we used to call Middle School), so of course we've all grown up together.  They have kept their friendship strong and I am a bit jealous of that :)   There is nothing better than good friends, and friends with that much history are even better :)

xoxo


This reminded me of Connie and Angie :) 

Monday, November 16, 2015

Real Quick..........

Morning friends!

Just a quick update today.  I had a busy weekend and have more to share, but for now, I just wanted to give my weigh in update from my meeting on Friday.



I'm down 5 more  pounds!  I am pretty happy with my loss, but nervous at the same time.  Sometime I loss consistently and then all of a sudden, have a gain.  Especially with big losses.  My body is crazy.  I am just trying to be really careful and make sure I eat all my points, with most of it being healthy choices.  Anyway, that is 16 pounds total so far :)  My goal is to be 199 at Christmas so I'm hoping my loosing will continue, but Thanksgiving is coming and you all know what that means....... EEK! 

I have a busy day ahead of me....the gym....shopping for our Thanksgiving meal....cleaning that I should have done last week, and laundry that has been piling up since last week.  Why can't I find time to do anything?

Well,  I'm off to get ready for the gym.  I only went one time last week, so I'm hoping to get my 3 times in this week. :)

Have a wonderful day!  Remember keep Paris in your thoughts.  Keep your family close and give your children an extra hug.

xoxo




Thursday, November 12, 2015

Paper Equals Love

I have a paper obsession.  It's out.  I've admitted it.  I've always loved paper.  Tablets, folders, binders.  I don't know why but I've just always loved them.  I used to think I wanted to be a teacher because I love to organize paper, but I think that's the only reason I wanted to teach, so I didn't follow that career path :)

Every year I ponder and search for just the right day planner.  I've had so many in my lifetime, I couldn't count.  I begin looking around Thanksgiving, and no kidding, I've gone to so many stores, numerous times even, just to find the one I want, only to changes my mind again and again.   Blayne, my daughter can attest to my weirdness with planners, as can the guys working at Office Max and Staples :)  Sometimes I find the right one, fill it in, and then go on a new search to find a "better one".  The crazy thing about this whole thing, is I don't really use them on a daily basis.  Sure, I fill them out, add to them during the week, but I don't LOOK at them unless I'm writing something in.   I never use it the way it is supposed to be used.  Lately, I feel the need to plan out my days better.  Carve out time for me and my fitness schedule, fun schedule, blogging and everything else.  After searching the stores and internet, I remembered my blogging friend Alyssa at A Journey To Thin posted a while back about a new planner that she just received and loved.  I read back through her posts, which was fun to re-read, and found it.  It is called The Passion Planner.  It is just what I need to help me stay organized, focused, and help me remember things, because I am getting a little forgetful :)

This are some pictures from their facebook page 
to show you what some of the examples look like :) 





Doesn't it look fun and organized?? :)   Yay!  I ordered my this morning and I'm excited for it to come!  I'm hoping if I write everything down, I will feel more accountable and will actually follow through with things and get things accomplished :)

Thanks Alyssa!! :)

xoxo

"With organization, comes empowerment."

~Lynda Peterson


Monday, November 9, 2015

Monday Catch Up

I'm just going to jump right in with my weigh in from Friday.  I've been wanting to post all weekend, but just haven't found to the time to sit and do it :)


I'am down 2.2 pounds this week, for a total of 11.2!!  I was so excited because I cheated last Sunday for Dominic's birthday and had some Chinese and Dairy Queen cake.  I jumped right back on plan the next day and I think that helped!  I am pretty proud of myself because, usually, I never jump back on track the next day.  Usually I take 2 or 3 or 4 days of eating before it's over, so that is big for me :)   I am really trying to stay on track, trying to get to they gym as much as possible, and trying to stay focused and motivated!  

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So much has being going on this week.  One thing to share is that I got my hair cut.....finally!  I've been wanting to do it for a long time now, but you know how it is.  My hair is my comfort.  It hides my round face and it's puffy so it evens out my bigger body.  It's not like no one knows I'm overweight because of my hair, but it was my safe thing.  I know that's weird, but it was.  Anyway, I finally got it cut!!  I did it!  It desperately needed a color fix, so I got that too!!  

For those just joining me, I will show you a picture of me before........


And now, with a new cut and color :) 



My color isn't as light as I wanted, but that's fine with me.  I was a little worried about Greg, and how he would like it, but he loves it.  It's not that I do whatever he wants, but hey, I still want him to find me attractive :)   Amway, I'm happy with it and even though it can't "hide" my weight, I love it :) 

I promise to make time to post more.  You all know how much I miss it when I'm gone for a week, even though it seems to be happening often lately.  Why can't there me more hours in the day?? :) 

Remember to stay focused on whatever goal you have set for whatever is going on in your life.  Take a step back and remember why you started in the first place :) 

xoxo






Monday, November 2, 2015

Weekend Fun and Monday Candy Free!

Just a few pictures from the weekend to share with everyone.

Like I said, for Halloween we went over to my sisters house.  She decorates her garage and we all usually sit there and hand out candy.  It's like a one stop shop! :)  We usually get about 80 kids or so, but only got 40 this year.  The weather was super nice,  and warm, so we aren't quite sure whats up with that.  Anyway we had so much candy left over, which wasn't good for Sunday!  Oh well! 

My cute little pumpkin tin to hold my candy :) 



My little Bee! 



Greg and I :)  
I attempted to be a bunny, 
but my makeup kept disappearing :) 


My sister and our Momma :) 



My SIL Julie, and her daughter Ariel.

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Ariel's youngest
The Ninja!



My niece Alyssa's 
Buzz Lightyear boy!



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Sunday Dominic, our youngest came over to celebrate his birthday which was on Friday.  Since he was staying at school until Sunday, Greg and I took a birthday cake over for him and his roommates on Friday.  He was so excited, but mostly for the Star Wars plates and napkins that I bought too :)   We had nice day celebrating.  He wanted Chinese for dinner, so we ordered take out and I also bought a Dairy Queen cake for us eat too!    I just can not believe that my baby is 20 years old!  It doesn't seem possible!  It seems like only yesterday he was a baby.  It makes me feel sad and happy at the same time.  I miss him as a little boy, but yet am so very proud of who his is today!  A man really!  Dang it!   Where did the time go?  As you all know, I was struggling with him leaving the nest, because he is our youngest and at least we always had him at home, when our older 2 were off and about.  But do you know what?  Friday, his birthday, wasn't to awful.  I did get a little teary eyed thinking about him being 20 now, but it was short lived and then I was OK :)   As you know, I like to show pictures of my kids on their birthdays, but since I did Dominic already during a melancholy day I had, I wont bore you with them again, but in case you didn't see it, or want to see again........Here he is


Dominic and Ava,
 ready for presents!



Here is one of his present that we bought him.  He is in love with Pink Floyd and found this tapestry on Amazon and sent me the link to buy lol.   He sent me this picture of it up in his room already!  


Oh and for you Star Wars fans out there.  That pillow case that Dominic has in his dorm, was my little brothers from the Return of the Jedi when it came out in 1983 :) 

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Later my sister came over with her dogs to visit.  It was so nice outside we got to sit out and use The Sanctuary!! 


Connie and Greta, 
Blayne with Ava


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I started back at the gym this morning.  I haven't been because I've been sick, and then the past few days, I just haven't wanted to go.  This morning I didn't want to go.  I wanted to stay wrapped in my blanket, drinking coffee and reading with Ava.  But once I got dressed, I was excited to go and get back in the swing of things.  I really missed my Pilates workout.  I forgot how wonderful I feel afterwards :)   I also started a new weight lifting routine today.  I found it online and it's working more muscles that I usually do.  I usually mainly concentrate on my arms and legs, this one adds more sets for each muscle and also incorporates the back and shoulders.  I've read that building muscle helps boost metabolism and burns fat through out the day.   Who knows, but that's what I'm hoping for anyway! 

Have a great week everyone!!  Stay motiviated!  Stay happy!  And stay away from to much left over candy! :) 

xoxo

Sorry if this offends any one, 
but I just loved it!